`x__[ U are GONNA be MY love 395 !!.((^^,)..

2006-06-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

I miss u so much...but i juz dun dare to mention abt it or even to bother abt u....teach mi a way how to chase away all these feelings?? i really dun know...haiz...

2006-06-22T00:22:00.000+08:00

Back to type a entry after so long...its been quite a long time tat we had broke up le...u r leading a veri wonderful life...had a great bf with u...but do u know all tis while i had been waiting for u?? waiting for u to come back to my arms again...waiting for u to back so i can always sing tat song for u wen it rains...hug u tight wenever u r feeling down....i miss u...n i really do....

2006-02-12T00:32:00.000+08:00

Dun know wat's wrong with mi...i shldnt gt pissed off...becoz we r nt together anymore...but the way u call him juz makes mi feel so uneasy...BOOBOO!!! BOOBOO!!! BOOBOO!!! sucks!! everything juz sucks!!! to u i m juz GARY!!! haiz...i didnt wanted to think abt it...dun wan to talk abt it but juz dun understand why i cant control myself at all...i hate myself...i m nt ard wen u needed someone...n juz nice he is there for u....he is the nicest to u throu the days...shower u with all his luv n concern....ITS LUV N CONCERN!!! i'm so stupid....why r all these things making mi so upset??

Or maybe juz give him a chance to prove tat the both of u can still be together ba...bless the both of u all the best....i shall bury everything....wash away all the memories....every single pic of memories....

2006-02-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

:,(
i feel so toopid now...
now i noe e feeling of hatred...
is so hurting n saddening...
i cant blame anithing but God...

do u noe,
when i hang up e phone wif u,
saying i gg toilet...
i m actually gg toilet n having a quick bath too...
cos i gg down to find u...
e call i gaf u after my bath...
is asking u if u wan to c mi immed anot...
i noe e ans will b yesh, so i gg to rush down
but guess wat,
e silence ans all my opposite qns...

i cant blame anithing now...
u r in difficult position too...
i can onli blame God for everything tat happens...
blame Him for creating her jus lky tat...
y create her so lky tat...
haix...
dunno wat to do le...
bye...
when gt fate den c ya bahx...

2006-02-06T19:33:00.001+08:00

decided to write a short entry for u...
u been asking mi why gif up and take back my words...
i dunno how to explain to u...
but tis is how i feel...

is nt y experience so much le,
luv so much le...
of cos luv can overcome or cover all e downs...
but do u understand,
is bcos luv so much and experiences too much...
too much tat u noe nth can change us...
too much tat u understood e situation gg to b e same for now n future...
so i decided to stop it...
jus stop it b4 another big fight or hurt gg to come...
luv too much tat is enough for mi to continue or stay put...

jus pray n hope everyday,
u can live healthy, happily and stressless no matter where u r...
wish u can find some1 hu has e combination tat u wan...
so u will nv caught in middle animore...
so u will find e real happiness...
dun torture yrself by stick to wat u wan now can???
look forward...
something gd will happen to u...
u deserve something nicer n beta...
u relli do deserve someone hu luv u n can live happily together...

2006-02-06T19:33:00.000+08:00

2006-02-05T04:32:00.000+08:00

hey,
no need to hide anithing animore...
since we r nt together...
wat for u r still afraid...
jus b honest wif yrself or mi...
u wif huever or doing wat,
is ok wif mi...
no need to afraid i will feel tis or tat...
cos when u hide,
i feel worst...

now u single,
u gt e freedom to meet huever wat...
so y bother so much...
b true to yrself...

i dun wish to hide...
tats y i gg to say it out...
i feel tat today u met pearl...
so u didnt reply mi...
i dun believe yr hp low batt...
cos how a low batt hp last for hrs...
aniway,
since u gt e freedom nt to say anithing...
cos we nt together le...
i respect u...
so i nt gg ask u animore thing when u dun wan to ans...
so u can dun reply mi too...
i jus telling wat i feel here...
cos i noe, u wan to noe...
i jus feel irritated when u lie...
when we r nt together already..
tats all...

2006-01-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

seem lky i dun wan gif an answer also cant le...
frm e day we break, my ans is still a "no" to patch...
i didnt wan to say it out...
cos i dun wan a "No" ans...
haix...
but wat to do...
even today, e first day of chinese new year...
nth seem to change my decision....
i still feel we dun suit each other...
totally gone case...

cos i always find fault on u...
to make mi happi,
u wan to change yrself all e time...
but how many times can u change???
how long u wan to change???
foreva, till e day u die???
cos no1 is perfect...
when u change, u feel happi???
when u keep changing for mi,
r u still yrself???
so wat for???
find someone hu accept hu u r bahx...
sorrie, i dun tink i m e one...
dunno when, my expectations went so high...
dunno how come, i m onli seeking for e perfect lover...

aniway,
after today hearing yr dates wif pearl...
i double confirm myself, i dun suit u at all...
i cant pei u most of e time...
or i can say, all e time when u need mi...
esp on festival seasons...
wat kind of gf m i???
sound lky frenz...
she is e one hu can pei even on e eve and e actual day...
e days tat when frenz all having fun, having their own program...
she is tat free to pei u lohx...
so if i m a gf, wat kind of gf m i???
i noe e feelings of being alone on festival seasons...
totally lousy...

every week unhappi wif u, at least for once...
festival season cant pei u...
sorrie, i used her to compare wif mi...
but i cant help it...
e moment i heard u r wif her...
i hate myself more...
i feel so useless...
mayb i m jealous too bahx...
but nvm abt tat,
aniway, i tink u still gt feeling for her bahx...
dun tell mi u dun haf at all lohx...
u once luv her so much...
i believe u still haf feelings for her...
mayb nt tat strong onli bahx...

dun get mi wrong...
i nt asking u to b wif her or pushing u away to others...
it hurts mi to keep a distance frm u too...
but i rather both of us suffer for awhile and everything is ok le...
i jus wan u to find a perfect lover for yrself too...
a 100% one...
e one hu suit u...
e one hu can accept hu u r...
e one can pei u no matter wat time or day it is...
e one hu luvs u wholeheartedly...
*good luck*

2006-01-28T18:36:00.000+08:00

Hmm...juz came back home nt long ago...i think u had already reached le ba....hope u will be enjoying yrself...

Actually i knew tat u would reply mi tat msg in tat way de...but still feel kinda of upset...anyway juz use tis few days to quiet down ba...admit tat i m really missing u veri badly but i cant do anything...how i wish u will be calling mi at tis moment...i m juz thinking too much le...

The moment tat i m att to u...i had already told myself u r the one...the only one tat i wan....i dun wan anyone else...i know i have alot of bad points tat u cant accept...n i had done my best in changing...u know it yrself....its u tat make mi realise true luv....u taught mi to luv with whole heart....no matter wat decision u will make...i will forever be the one who stay put n wait....i will never give u up...never give up on the luv we had....

*Gary signoff*

2006-01-24T02:42:00.000+08:00

I m back again...for the part 2 of my story...as for part 1 there r alot more of msges de but no choice i cant post everything...so gt to cut down le... :Pp hope u will like the part 2 too....
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01/01/2006
03:49:18pm

Keke..den let me steal a few mins of yrs..allow me to say i love u one more time.. :) muack!

01/01/2006
09:48:20pm

Wo hao xiang wo de qing ai de lao gong wor!!!

01/01/2006
11:12:33pm

I m really very hurt n dishearted by yr words..i did so much things to b wif u only..but u still dun feel my wholehearted love..u cant even trust me after so much happenings? wat can i say? jus leave me alone..i really dun wan anything or say anything..sorry.

01/01/2006
11:19:54pm

I got enough of u guys..y everything i do is wrong? didnt do anything also wrong..u all having mood swing also my fault..only u guys r human? i m an angel?

01/01/2006
11:45:26pm

No need to b sorry. cos i m waken up by yr words. i m no longer dreaming. for a few days, i dreamt i m settling down n having only a luv of 1 person. but i was wrong, e luv is still scar of my past. e bitchy me still so untrusted. now i relli understand everything. i can nv change a person's temper too.

02/01/2006
12:34:59pm

I dun need anyone to do anything for me. i gif up. i relli mean it. jus being selfish n doing things for myself. if u wan to change or wat. do it for yrself n own gd. i relli wan to b single. i m relli very tire n xin ku. i need a break pls. if u wan we can still fren. other den tat, sorry. i wont agree.

02/01/2006
03:02:30pm

I m sorry for my selfishness.. my heart already died.. i will b doing by my brain le..i give up my heart..i no longer wan it, i got enough of everything..enough happy memories for me to carry on too..thanx for yr gift of happy memories. :)
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Tis 2 days was my most terrible days in the year of 2006...on the 1st day of 2006...i threw a veri big temper on u.... i dun trust u...kept thinking u r hiding things from mi...n i gt my biggest lesson...u left mi...watever i say...or i even begged u...u still insisted on yr thinking...now i had learn my mistake...controlling my mood n temper le...hope i didnt disappoint u ba...did i did a gd job?? =))
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03/01/2006
10:15:34pm

U tc wor! i reach hm..thanx for giving me another wonderful night tat i can remember.. :)
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Our 4th mth anniversary wor...had dinner with u at a thai resturant..romantic wor...sitting by the side of the river...enjoying each other de accompany...even we had broken up...our heart is still beating as one at tat moment... =))
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09/01/2006
08:15:11am

Yup, i reach class le..actually i was suprise and happy to noe u came down..u did yr part..mayb today god only wan me to surprise u..so later is my turn.. :) i love u shu shu beng!

09/01/2006
08:41:48am

Wo hao xiang ni wor!

10/01/2006
11:35:35am

Keke..nth la.. no one is perfect..even is very bad , our love already overcome it.. :) so is lovely n sweet!

11/01/2006
09:21:34pm

:)).. i will not regret to b wif u too.. i love u for hu u r..muack!
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Somehow we sort of gt back together again...these r a few sweet msges throu out tat few days...happy happy happy...u r back once again =))
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20/01/2006
11:50:26pm

Sorry..i m too filled wif disappointment..my expectation is so high..i cant control myself..

21/01/2006
12:04:05am

Nth happen to me wat..i jus cant tolerate u, torture yrself, u dun tc yrself and u keep saying i m pek chek when i m not..tat really make me bad mood le..
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Hmm...threw a small temper on u again...sorrie...my fault for making u so upset...sorrie for always judging things on my own thinking...tot u would leave mi again...but its sunshine after the rain le... =))
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25/01/2006
02:16:26am

Tis small part here is specially for u de....so happy to c u today...i know u r veri tired n stuff...tons of work to do...but still came down to take yr contact lens cum see mi..haha...juz wan to say...i really really treasure tis r/s alot...i didnt wan to lose u...but i know recently there r something bad happening...i m quite prepare abt the objections yr mum had made...sooner or later we have to face it...but i never expected it to be so soon...i hope tat we can slowly overcome all these bad things...like u had said...watever bad things it is...our love had already overcome it...i will juz try my veri best to make u happy....ups or downs....i m going to share it with u only...as my heart had long ago belongs to u le...as long as we know we r really truly in love...nothing is going to be matter le...our love juz rocks the world!! =))

*Gary signoff*

2006-01-23T01:40:00.000+08:00

From tis afternoon i had been thinking of giving u something veri special...n i came up with the idea of typing wat i can remember n wat u had msged mi....hope can at least be sweet abit n let u know i actually still take small things into heart de.... :Pp
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29/09/2005
01:31:48pm

No matter wat others may say..e moon is foreva being e earth..jus lky i m gg to b there for u wheneva u need me..e moment i strength out my hand i can feel yr fingers..they jus fit e space between our fingers..-("v")->
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Still can remember tis msg is from u wen we patched back for the first time...veri sweet msg becoz it seems like we r meant to be...as we fit the space between each other's fingers... =))
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05/10/2005

12:00:00am

Happiest birthday to my hubby!!! i love u deep deep wor..muz tc, stay healthy n cheerful... i will stand by yr side no matter wat happens.. acc u thru all e ups n downs..

05/10/2005
11:34:58pm

I really miss u.. even thru we meet for a few hours..it seem like nv enough for me..i love u! wish u really a happy bday wor..muack.tc hubby!
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haha...tis 2 msges was on my birthday de...the first one was exactly at 12am lor...i was shocked sia...u sent mi the msg even wen i m on the fone with u....as for the second one...we wen for a movie n u sent it to mi wen we both r on our way home...=))
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30/10/2005
11:05:44am

Hubby jus wan to say i really love n miss u..i really wan to treasure u cos u r someone very special to me..i cant do wifout u..Having u by my side is enough..i will carry on n fight jus to b stay alive n to c u being happy..Muack! Wo ai ni..

30/10/2005
11:21:02am

U r..U r someone hu i love alot, feel e heartache when things r not rite, feel e joy wheneva i c u..Doesnt matter is more down den up jus to b wif u..Cos having u by my side is more than enough..i dun wish or ask for more..

30/10/2005
08:11:42pm

Wateva it is..Things happen..We cant control..But i can tell u, i will not leave u..As long as i can do it..I promise..
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I wasnt in gd shape tat day...u were trying to cheer mi up...haiz...n u always manage to put a smile on my face even things turn out to be really veri bad...=))
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03/11/2005
11:37:47pm

Hubby happy 2nd month wor! Keke..Today is outdoor celebration..So fun n i really enjoy myself to e fullest..Hope u too..Muack! Love u lots..
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Was our 2nd mth anniversary...took u to east coast...had a veri full breakfast cum lunch at parkway...den cycle together...wen to bedok jetty to enjoy the wind...i wen use a bottle de cap to propose to u...lame mi.... :Pp after cycling brought a box of ice cream n eat together....always tat sweet n lovely... =))
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06/11/2005
05:58:50pm

Yeah..I luv u 2..Muack..Jus wan to say, i noe u try yr best to live wifout me but we cant..Mayb we shld stop trying to push or avoid each other? Jus enjoy being wif each other..if relli cant together den depend on fate? dun wan to c my hubby suffering..My hubby is my angel n deserve to b happy..

13/11/2005
11:17:53am

Hai..I also..Tats y didnt reply at times..I feel so weird..Our love becoming so unstable..
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First msg was on avoiding each other n pushing u away....i was feeling now...den kept thinking tat i m nt worth for u...n juz push u away....for the second one was becoz u wen for BK's chalet...i was feeling veri veri uneasy...cant stand tat u will be spending a few days with him....n we sort of broke up n stuff but in the end i still asked u to come back to mi...u didnt wanted to de...but heart is beating as one wor... =))
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01/12/2005
07:37:42am

Morning hubby! I miss miss u...Keke..Miss yr hugs, yr kisses, yr smile, yr eyes, yr arms n hands tat hold me tight..I simply love u to e core! Muack!

08/12/2005
01:23:23pm

Having u by my side is beta than having tons of frenz, lots of money or any sort of happiness one could get. Thru times things may get tough or too tough as a challenge for us, i believe if we hold on together. We will win! I truly luv u lots my dear. U always said i lighten up yr life n brought u hope, but neither did u realise. U too give me hope. A hope tat guarantees me of a happy life i will b leading in yrs to come. U too give me true luv which i nv gotten b4. Tis is e kind of luv tat one would nv forget as long as she lives. Thanx my boo for giving me so much. I will treasure every min n sec i haf wif u. Our luv will last till eternity. As i know we were meant to b. I luv u! Pls tc for me can. To c u sick or upset, it hurts me double.

11/12/2005
02:27:10pm

Luv is e flower of life, and blossoms unexpectedly. Haf u seen e flower in yr heart? I carry yr heart wif me n i'm nv wifout it. Anywhere i go, u go, my dear. I haf u in my heart! All, everything tat i understand, i understand only cos i luv. For luv is a flower of which luv is e honey.

12/12/2005
05:11:59pm

U r my life, my soul, my hubby till e end..
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Some sweet sweet de msges tat u had sent mi...there might have some misunderstanding in between but we always manage to clear them up...like Boo tat word...remember?? i still tot u sent it to the wrong person n make a big fussy over it sia...but everything is over le... =))
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12/12/2005
12:03:37am

Happy 100 days my hubby! Muack! I love u.. U r my angel tat always brighten up my days, pamper me like a princess and tc of me like a baby..Noone can ever compare u...

12/12/2005
11:53:22pm

I noe, i really noe n understand wat u trying to say...U told me alot of time le, i jus kept quiet all e time..Cos i really speechless...I keep escaping from reality cos i noe is gg to b hard on us...But wat else can i do? I need to b strong...How? I also dunno...Jus cherishing everything now wif no regrets...I wan e best out of u too, dun wan u to b so stress n living so aimlessly everyday..Cos i care n luv u!
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Tis is the day wen i was really veri surprised...becoz u bought mi alot of presents....a big card...a ring...chocos....den in the nite i once again made u sad wen i told u i m leaving spore le....gg over to thai to work...u juz always support mi in watever i do... =))
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16/12/2005
02:27:13pm

How u noe? i cried jus now..as i listening to yi da's song n tinking wat u say yday..
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Hmm...tis day is the day wen i felt we both r really heart linked de...till now i still can sense how u feel....*scary*
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19/12/2005
11:36:44am

Is not i dun trust u..is i dun trust myself le..and if u were me and u read tat how u feel? i also ask u hu is tat..u told me fren..a fren wif all those words wat u will tink?

I nv did tat..i dun even believe it when i c yr blog..until u tell me is a fren..den i was very dishearted..cos i got no confident wif myself at all.
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23/12/2005
01:28:56pm

I hate e situation i created..i hate everything i did..i hate myself..

01:45:56pm

One day cost 24hours..one hour cost 60mins..one min cost 60sec..how fast can it b for three long years?
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26/12/2005
01:25:49pm

Everything over le..he msg me to tc and i m free le..

03:05:24pm

I miss u too..i really dun feel like tinking or doing anything le..i use up all my strength n energy..can dun push me to myself n tink can?

03:10:29pm

K..i m..mayb i m not tat cheerful so u feel funny bah.. :) i love u!

08:34:39pm

I miss u so much too!!! i miss yr warm huggie..i miss yr sweet kisses..

08:48:50pm

:))..having u by my side is so heavenly..i feel so loved n important..i will nv regret staying in yr arms n grow..i love u tons..muack!

09:51:55pm

Heehee..muack muack muack!!! i feel like kissing n huggie u! :)
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The day tat u offically broke up with him...i m so happy tat day...as we dun need to hide anymore...n our love had gone thru another big wall....=))
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28/12/2005
01:05:43am

:) u r so lovely today. e moment i saw u, my heart jus smile till now. no matter how little or toopid things we do tgt or haf u by my side, i feel so xinfu!
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31/12/2005
12:22:45am

Good night! :) i love u..thanx for giving me such a wonderful day.
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I made yr last day of year 2005 a wonderful nite by helping u to wear tat special ring.. =))
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After typing out so much i realise tat i had been only hurting u....haiz....u always made mi smile, made mi happy....always manage to calm mi down...but wat abt mi?? did i really did something for u?? typing all tis out didnt mean anything...juz wan to flash back in the future...can still c tat in the past we did have happy n sad moments together....=)) there will be more to come de....tis page is for the year 2005....the next one will be for year 2006 le...

Veri late le...u must be like a baby slping veri soundly le....hope u will be having sweet dreams ba....

Hope tat our love can really really overcome everything ba....

*Gary signoff*

2006-01-17T23:59:00.000+08:00

I love u....

U love mi...

We r happy family....

With a great big hug n a kiss from mi to u....

Wont u tell mi...

U love mi too.....

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Piggy piggy u must be slping now le....haha....juz come in n tell u I LOVE U LOTS!!! n I MISS U TOO!!! i wan to c u....hug u....hold u....kiss u....smell u....OMG!!! There r so many things tat i wan to do with u....time flies really veri fast...i wan to cherish every min n sec le....dun wan to waste it....

*Gary signoff* LOVE U LOVE LOVE U!!!!!

2006-01-14T12:03:00.000+08:00

But only love can say - try again or walk away

But I believe for you and me

The sun will shine one day

So I'll just play my part

And pray you'll have a change of heart

But I can't make you see it through

That's something only love can do

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I m backie...
Hmm....long time didnt come in to update lei...so here i m to blog blog...haha...
I still have 3 weeks here...or rather 24 days ba...the r/s between u n mi is so different now...sometimes i juz feel tat we r frens...frens tat r damn close de....n there r times tat i feel tat we r couple...a lovely couple....i dun know why i had all tis kind of feelings...i so vexed...haiz...i have so many worries...everytime wen i c u...i juz have the urge to hug u tight to mi n cry....but i always controlled myself...i juz have to make u happy....enjoy every moment with mi....hope i can do all tis before 7th of feb ba....

The love in mi is so strong...i cant believe it myself....life seems to meaningless without u...i so used to having u ard....everynite de chit chat....everyday de msges....meet up de hugs & kisses....how can i live without all tis?? all i know is tat u had stolen my heart away...u r the only reason i m breathing for....i m juz living in u....baby i love u!!!

*Gary singoff*

2006-01-05T19:13:00.000+08:00

WoHoOoo~!!!
i m back...
keke...
so long didnt update le...
hmm...
so far so gd bahx...
trying to take a break frm everything...
=))

didnt delete my bloggy...
jus change my URL...
cos bu she de...
keke...
mayb gg to change e skin bahx...
sain of e skin le
=Pp

pls get more rest wor..
drink more water k???
dun wan u get sick sick again...
c yA~!!! =))

2006-01-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

Everything juz ended like tat...everything juz ended overnite...
I LOVE U...
MISS U LOTS.....

*Gary signoff*

2006-01-02T07:00:00.000+08:00

I have thousands n millions of sorry to say to u...i know u wont need my sorry n stuffs...but i know i had did something veri wrong le...i admit i was in veri bad mood...i admit my words r harsh but all these feelings come at one time...i cant handle them at all....sorry tat i had vent it on u....i had been controlling it till i saw yr entry...i know yr entry didnt mean any harm...juz wan the best out of mi....but i dun have the intention to leave u down here....

How i wish i can turn the clock back...n stop myself from saying all these out...i feel so bad so guilty...i can sense how u feel...the pain is so hurtful...haiz....i didnt say i dun trust u...all along i had been trusting u but last nite i had gone crazy le....i m really veri veri sorry...

Ling...pls forgive mi for my mistake can?? i had already learn from my mistake...i know i m in great wrong le...pls pls pls dun ignore...i know u wan to have some space...i shall nt disturb u...but at the same time pls let mi know u will be alrite can?? the whole of last nite i m feeling so miserable....cant slp...walk ard yr blk...dun know wat to do...feel so lost...haiz...but i really did listen to u...i wen home wen u asked mi to....haiz...i m going crazy...dun ignore mi pls.....

2006-01-01T14:13:00.000+08:00

welcome year 2006~!!!!
*yipee*
keke... =Pp
had a wondeful surprise celebration frm hubby yday nite wor...
despite its jus a 2hr meeting but it relli meant alot...
hubby bought flowers, ring and a book for mi...
WOW!!!
lky propose hor???
keke... yup...
i luv e ring to bits lohx...
is so so so pretty!!!
e writting is fine too...
e flowers r for apologise but i dun find e need...
cos is my fault for nt picking e calls lohx...
hmm...
hubby, next time no need to say sorry k???
i dun need yr sorry...
to haf u around is more than enough...
i understand if u jus tell mi wats gg on...
theres no need for gift n apologise...
=))

after giving mi all e surprises...
we went for supper at prata hse...
hee...
*yummy*
e whole day i haf been eating...
=Pp
we chat quite alot...
keke... cos was toking abt sensitive topic...
nv ending also...
forget it...
den we count down in bus!!!
lol... so special sia...
mine gift is a kiss for hubby on e first sec of yr2006...
haha...
den of cos tat shirt lOhx...
yup yup...

wat a lovely n sweet nite...
*melted*

hmm...
hubby jus wan to tell u something...
if feb, u r nt transfer to ps...
i tink a gd idea is go thailand n work...
cos u relli need a long break...
away frm tis bz city of sg...
e short trip u r gg on feb, is nt enough for u de...
cos u r too stress n drained out le...
yr body need a long break lky i say...
i nt asking u to go for a long time...
jus for 1 or 2 yr...
till u r ready n well den come back to sg...
den continue work here...
i m sure u will b more energitic...
when u r more prepared n well, i m sure u can work better...
work better also can haf more income wat...

i noe yr worries is still on mi...
but i m sure i can live well here...
cos i m used to taking care of myself le...
i m still studying too wat...
will b bz wif tis n tat...
wun haf much prob de...
aniway, i can still contact u wat...
u r jus a phone call away?
lky u said...
and u r coming back to visit mi now n then too rite?
one or two year veli fast over de...
cos i m studying...
=))
so everything gg to alrite...
cos my heart is wif u...
*muack*

2006-01-01T01:15:00.000+08:00

Wahaha...its a New Year!! hmm...2006...time flies real fast....one glance n its already 2006...haiz...old liao ar...haha...juz reach home nt long ago...n my lao po zai is slping like a pig liao... :Pp met up with her...wen for supper n stuffs...hmm....gave a really big surprise to her...tis i shall nt blog abt it...shall leave it for u to blog....remember must blog wor....anyway thks for the shirt...i love it to the core...i always wanted something like tat...n u know my taste well wor....

Lao po zai...its a new year...looking forward to things tat we can achieve together tis year...hope everything will go smooth for us...no more problems...no more ppl to pester us....i dun wan any more troubles...juz wan to be with u happily n peacefully....love u real lots...dun wan to ever lose u...juz wan to stick with u forever....the tots of losing u will make mi go nuts....hope both of us will hold real tight to tis r/s...we had really worked veri hard to gt till tis level....dun wan to fall back le...miss u lots....

A happi happi new year to u n to all...hope u will have a gd year ahead...but i m sure u will be having a veri gd year becoz u have a lovely hubby!!! haha... MUACKZ!!!!!

030905 SNG foreva...*Gary signoff*

2005-12-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

I will always love you, I will always stay true

Theres no one who loves you like I do

This I promise...I will never leave you, I will stand here with you

Though the good and bad

I will stand true

Hold me closer...Our love is forever, holding us together

Nothing in this world can stop us now

Now we've here together, yesterday has past

Life is just beginning, close to you at last

And I promise to you, I will always be there

I give my all to you

Living life without you is more that

I can bear

Hold me close forever,

Ill be there...

....................................................................................................................................................................

Hmm...back from my trip with BB.....wen sentosa lei...sian 1/2...beocz of the stupid rain...cant sun tan at all....wan to tan black black but still white white come back...haiz...morning wanted to give u a surprise de but in the end u know le...sian sian....wen habourfront to had lunch...actually wanted to walk in de but in the end cant find the way so took bus...wen we r in bus it started to pour heavily...sian for the 2nd time...haiz...today all spoilt mood de...reach soliso beach ard 2 plus...found a place...n sit down...n it started to rain veri heavily le....bb was wet...damn wet...so decided to shelter her...or else she is gg to fall sick liao...day wasnt tat really bad la...still had romantic time on the beach....we were chasing each other n playing with water n stuffs...had alot of fun...haha...bb notti ar...always bully mi de....=((

So decided to leave the place ard 4 plus...wen toilet to wash our legs n saw elaine...haha...after tat wen to marina square to have dinner...was damn hungry lei...after dinner walk ard...n wen to find vee...n waited for him to finish work...took train home...wanted to send bb home de but too tired le...so send till ang mo kio station...sorry bb...have to let u take bus alone... :Pp

ok...today really veri happy...u had guess the correct couple ring i had brought...n i m so happy wen u told mi tat u r ready to wear it...i know u have yr own reasons why u dun wan to let others know abt the r/s between us....but i have my own reasons to let them know too....dun wan to say anything abt all these...i respect wat u had decided...as long as i have u by my side...i m ok with anything le....i love u....shall post some pics later on....

030905 SNG foreva....love u love u...*Gary signoff*

2005-12-28T00:09:00.000+08:00

=))
had a wonderful wet outing today...
keke...
even thru e weather didnt turn up wat we expected,
i still enjoy everything...
include e rain...
cos it is relaxing...
i luv it thru... ^-^

morning woke up,
den prepare to go out le...
expected hubby will come n fetch mi...
keke...
so e surprise turn up expected...
mi smart rite...
hee...

den had our breakfast cum lunch at mac...
took a bus over to sentosa...
so hubby finally in 14yrs time step into sentosa again...
keke...
waited for e rain to stop n we arrive at siloso beach...
but it started to pour again...
sained...
so we found a shelter n sat down...
sat there watching e rain falls...
is relli nt bad...
i lky it aniway...

after awhile...
e rain relli stop le...
hubby was running n playing e sand...
so kawaii!!!!
lky small kids... =Pp
den after awhile, i join in e fun...
chasing her round e beach...
hee...
*fun nehx*
lky throwing all e probs behind our head...
gg back to kid time...
stressless n play all our might...
keke...

no matter wat it is..
as long as i haf hubby around...
e day is sunny n bright...
cos my heart smiling whenever u r around...
u r my sunshine...
i relli luv u!!!
*muack*

*lovely us* ("v")

*at sentosa* =))

2005-12-26T23:45:00.000+08:00

I believe in you

You know the door to my very soul

You're the light in my deepest darkest hour

You're my saviour when I fall

And you may not thinkI care for you

When you know down inside

That I really do

And it's me you need to show ....

How deep is your love? (how deep is your love?)

I really need to learn'Cause we're living in a world of fools

Breaking us down

When they all should let us be

We belong to you and me

.....................................................................................................................................................................

At last dun need to hide anything le...so relaxing now...the feeling is so great...have alot of things to say but had told u le so i dun c the need to blog it here...alot of different kind of feelings...shall slowly blog it out later ba....ciao....

*Gary signoff*

2005-12-26T00:41:00.000+08:00

I'll be there for you

These five words I swear to you

When you breathe I want to be the air for you

I'll be there for you I'd live and I'd die for you

Steal the sun from the sky for you

Words can't say what a love can do

I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times

How they have their own hiding place

I can promise you tomorrow

But I can't buy back yesterday

...................................................................................................................................

How m i gg to start tis entry?? i m so confuse...scare...all different kind of feelings...i m happy tat u had broken up with him...or rather i shld be feeling happy but i didnt...i cant describe out wat feelings i m having now...i really wish tat u can hold firm to wat u had decided...its nt for mi...its for yrself...u cant forever live in another person's shadow....u cant forever be trap in a cage...u gt to learn to love yrself le....stop getting hurt by others....u r meant to be loved....i m so scare so scare...wen u meet him wat will he say?? will u be soft hearted again?? will u go back to him again?? will he work on yr weak points to make u gan dong?? will u be dong yao?? haiz...i dun know...n i dun wish to think abt all tis...i dun wan to fall into the same situation again....i really dun wish to...

I m confuse to let u meet him anot....actually i dun wish to let u meet him again le...i m so afraid tat he will do stupid things to make u go back to him...will he cry to make u feel bad?? will he be hugging u tight to make u melt in his arms?? will he be saying tat u wont be tat heartless to break with him?? ARHG!!! there r so much so much of questions....the feelings r so bad tat its making mi breaking down....WAT CAN I DO TO STOP ALL THESE FEELINGS?? teach mi!!

Finally realise wat vee told mi is so true...wen u love someone...u will tends to think more...gt worry for her...think abt gd ones...bad ones...non stop of thinking...u will gt fan over tat special one wen u r really veri in love with her....u know how much u mean to mi ma?? u know how much i need u ma?? u know how much i wan to take care of u ma?? haiz...all tis "how much" cant be measure at all...its endless....

Lastly wan to tell u I LOVE U...I LOVE U LOTS.....pls dun leave mi....

030905 SNG foreva... *Gary signoff*

2005-12-24T23:22:00.000+08:00

keke... nice???
muack!!!
i luv u deeply hubby...
u let mi feel so loved, impt and bless all e time...
every min and sec wif u is so heavenly...
thanx for spending 2 whole day n night wif mi...
WO AI NI!!! =)) whmmmm...
let c...
fri afternoon was raining heavily...
den i requested u to sing...
cos i believe it can stop e rain...
KEKE...
den hu noes, it relli stop wor...
after few mins...
so hurried up and went for a bath...
den went cini to buy tickets first...
*a chinese tall story*
damn suay e whole day...
dun mention it le bahx... =Pp
cos i lost my beloved toot toot...
*sob sob*

den evening time reached hubby shop....
waited for hubby to close shop den went to watch movie!!!
we took bus 132 to far east first...
since we had so much time...
12am den start nehx...
keke...

e show???
lame sia!!!
frm e start to e end was full of rubbish...
how could a monk say vaguar words, fall in luv n kill ppl???
-_-""''
xie teng feng is a gay!!!
haha...
frm a cool guy to a gay...
cant imagine...
=Pp
overall nt a bad show lahx...
ah ya, we relli finished watching all e movies available le...
*zai*

b4 e show ended,
hubby took off my band...
my tears jus kept flowing down again...
cannot stop sia...
cos my heart relli ache sia...
in few days time,
i lost so many dearly things..
i cant take it!!!
i cant bear them...
it relli hurts to e bottom...
after movie, we talk things out bahx....

den decided to chat at my block there...
hmm...
peaceful night*
we tried all our might to keep a distance...
and made everything clear...
but cant!!!
we jus lky a super glue...
cant b seperated...

but i haf a wonderful morning wif u...
toking, hear u sing, laughing and enjoy each other accompany...
e feeling was so great tat it cant b decribed... -("v")->>
=))

keke...
so 6am, we went hm...
hubby fall aslp...
so early!!!
i fall aslp after waiting for sometime...
10am, woke up and disturbed hubby...
muAhAHA...
den bought breakfast for everyone lohx...
hubby's mummy seems in gd mood..
so everything was fine...

went city link find vee...
as asual, makan n chat...
den walk walk wif edwin...
blah blah blah...
ah ya, veli long winded to write everything lahx...
u noe n i noe can liaox rite...
enjoy each other presence is e impt thing mahx..
=))

*here come e impt part*
hubby gt an excellent idea sia...
go supermarket...
buy choco n fruits...
den go hm prepare ouir choco feast!!!
i cut n wash e fruits...
hubby melted e choco...
*yummy*
*drool*keke...
2 of us eat till we surrender sia...
too full!!!

it feel so nice to seat in e living room...
den watch tv n enjoy e peace wif hubby...
somemore today have choco feast...
keke...
relli *xin fu* + *xin fu* sia...

2005-12-23T13:50:00.000+08:00

2005-12-23T10:54:00.000+08:00

tears been flowing...
i try to clean them but they wun stop...
so now i letting them b...
let them flood my toopid, bloody n idiot face...
hu ask mi to broke e rules first...
and knowing tat, i still fall deeper n deeper...
jus a few mth...
it seems lky foreva...
now i cant turn back...
i cant accept ani party...
cos i dun deserve anione animore...
e truth will b out soon...
i will b alone soon...
mayb it is e best for mi...
cos i dun luv myself animore...
i hate e way i m doing things...
i hate e way i feels...
i hate everything abt myself!!!
i hate siling...
i hope i can die jus lky tat...

2005-12-23T02:42:00.000+08:00

Now i was once a fool, it's true

I played the game by all the rules

But now my world's a deeper blue

I'm sadder, but i'm wiser too

I swore i'd never love again

I swore my heart would never mend

Said love wasn't worth the pain

But then i hear it call my name

The trouble with love is

It can tear you up inside

Make your heart believe a lie

It's stronger than your pride

The trouble with love is

It doesn't care how fast you fall

And you can't refuse the call

See, you got no say at all

.....................................................................................................................................................................

Look at yr latest entry...the last part....its tat yr ans??
Juz told edwin i maybe forwarding my trip...maybe leaving before chinese new year...tot of gg drinking tonite but dun have any mood to even drag myself out of the hse...cant seems to slp...been thinking of u non stop...sweet memories had been kept flashing back...from the day i told u i like u...till gt together...till now....sweet n bitter memories....all those ups n downs...gone throu so much so much to gt together....big quarrels....small quarrels...doing sweet little stuffs for each other.....sacrifice important stuffs for each other...love roots grew so deeply into our hearts....all tis juz happened in juz 4 mths time....r all these still nt enough??? or i leave earlier to make u feel beta...so u wont be in a diffcult postition le....

*Gary signoff*

2005-12-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

i m forcing an ans...
i tried so hard...
is so xin ku...
cos i m relli in luv wif 2 ppl...
cant b compare at all...
e onli difference is tat 1 knew everything n suffer so much lky mi...
another is kept in e dark... e most happiest person bahx...
i know is unfair...
so i gt to make a choice real fast...
as i m ruining one person to e core...
to e extend tat i cant believe...
i hate tat...
i hate myself to e end for destroying u...
i will nv gg to luv myself animore aniway...
i can nv find ani goodness in myself animore...
i hate myself!!!

for mths, i force myself to do something for everyone...
but all e time i failed...
fail terribily...
y???
cos i relli luv u...
so do him...
wat an idiot mi...
selfish mi..
but i cant cheat myself either...

all i can say,
everything is so unfair...
i relli relli hope i can turn back time...
i hope i met u b4 him...
u r my dream partner...
some1 i hope i can wif for e rest of my life..
but tink i m nt tat lucky...
i met a childish guy first...
n fall in luv first...
a luv i cant escape...
now i left wif no choice... e reality is so cruel!!!

2005-12-22T23:15:00.000+08:00

Sorry didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it

I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it

and so I surrendered, just to hear your voice.

Don't know how many times I said I'm gonna live without you,and maybe someone else is standing there beside you,but there's something, baby you need to know.

That deep inside me, I feel like I'm dying.

I have to see you, it's all that I'm asking.

The days are so cold and lonely

and each night I taste the purest of pain.

I'm sorry I didn't mean to call you but I couldn't fight it.

I guess I was weak, couldn't even hide it

and so I surrendered just to hear your voice.

...................................................................................................................................................................

Juz finish reading yr blog...had so much different kind of feelings...helpless...angry...jealous...stupid...blah blah blah....i dun know wat to say at all...like i had told u...i lose le...he is still tat important person in yr heart after all...i m juz a passerby...i m juz a person tat gave u all the love u never had before...u gt all the things from mi tat u cant gt from him...but he still stand a important place in yr heart...still the same...to stay or nt...to throw or nt...its all up to u le...i m nt gg to say a single thing anymore.....my heart is feeling so cold hearted...no heart beat anymore...

*Gary signoff*

2005-12-20T21:10:00.000+08:00

Been staying at home the whole day to wait for u...dun dare to call or msg...juz wait is all i can do...wait wait wait....haiz...how much longer can i wait??

*Gary signoff*

2005-12-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

One boy, one girl.

Two hearts beating wildly.

To put it mildly it was love at first sight.

He smiled, and she smiled,and they knew right away

that this was the day they'd waited for all their lives.

For a moment the whole world revoloved around one boy and one girl.

................................................................................................................................................

Have a really great day with u ytd..its been a veri long time i didnt had tis kind of feelings le...its like a newly wed couple...spending time at home slp...cooking...eating n watching tv...hope tat we can still spend time like tat...

Alot of tots had been running in my mind...cant stop thinking...decided to throw away all my anger..my jealousy...all tat will cause us to quarrel...i m gg to throw it all away first n enjoy the rest of the days together...juz dun wan to waste a single min...wan to spend all the days with u n only u...

Glad tat u will gt jealous...i always tot u wont...becoz jealousy dun seems to work on u...till ytd...admit tat its partly my fault...my entry was overboard le...but she is really as a gd fren...i promise no matter wat happen u r still the one...the only one in my heart...no one can ever replace u...

Juz reach home...had a quarrel with u again...promised nt to but in the end still made u mad...something is veri wrong with mi...jealousy dun seems to gt out of mi...i m trying veri hard to change...n i know i had managed to change alot...but jealousy is always my biggest mistake...haiz...maybe i juz love u too much le.... =((

030905 SNG Foreva...*Gay signoff*

2005-12-18T23:42:00.000+08:00

I lose my way

And it's not too long before you point it out

I cannot cry

Because I know that's weakness in your eyes

I'm forced to fake

A smile, a laugh everyday of my life

My heart can't possibly break

When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you

I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt

Because of you

I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me

Because of you

I am afraid

..........................................................................................................................................

I m so speechless...i really dun know wat to say wen u called...actually there r so much so much...wanted to tell u why i cried...wanted to tell u why i m so upset...but nth seems to be coming out of my mouth...cant control my tears...it juz started to flow wen i m reading yr blog...i juz dun understand why....i m finding a reason....

*Gary signoff*

2005-12-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

Juz let everything be ba...i juz hate to c u suffering...hate to c tat u cant decide...so i gt no choice to make the decision...its a veri painful decision...its like thousands n millions of knife stabbing into my heart...our love for each other is too deep le...its too deep till we didnt realise it...everything juz sucks...juz hurts...haiz...

How i wish i can tell u to give up on him n come back to mi...how i wish u can stay by mi for a veri long long time...how i wish u will ask mi to stay...n say u will give him up...there r so many of how i wish...but its all juz wished tat will never come true...will never happen...

I admit tat i m really in love with u...i cant do without u...i need u veri much...but i have to wake myself up from my dreams le...we wont know wat future will be...but i juz praying hard tat the long long time will come true...the rest of the days before i leave...will try to spend every min n sec with u...juz dun wan anyone to disturb...leave all the sweet memories for u...

030905 SNG Foreva...*Gary signoff*

2005-12-16T11:04:00.000+08:00

hmm...
yday u did all e toking...
sorry, nowadays my words r limited...
dunno y i always speechless when e topic comes to r/s...

due to alot of reasons...
i m tire of r/s...
everything in r/s is unpredictable...
uncontrollable...
i m weak...
r/s is such a confusion, stress n heartache...

ya, i agree wifout hurt is nt luv...
e deeper e hurt is equals to how deep is yr luv...
but how much can a person take all tis...
is enough for mi bahx...
if ani happens,
if i relli lost everything...
i relli will nt go to e nxt r/s le....
at least for a long long time...
i need to relax, to b myself and heal myself...

u said e truth out...
i m surprised, i relli m...
i nv expect yr leaving is cos of mi...
haix....
i hate myself even more to noe tis...
i hate myself for being so soft hearted,
so toopid and helpless...
i cant do anithing now...
i gt no strength to do anithing...
or i dun wish to do anithing...
i hate to do anithing now...
as everything i do is wrong wrong wrong...
i always hurt everyone...

i m sorry...
i made u suffer so much...
i hurt u so much... so deep...
i done nth for u but hurting u...
however, u r doing more n more to sarcify for mi...
u r hurting n bearing all e pain jus for mi...
cos u luv mi...
haix....

at e point of time when noeing e truth...
i was tinking will u stay if i leave u...
cos i dun wan u to leave...
i noe there is so much here for u...
cos tis is where u belong...
is yr home...
i m so cruel!!!!
i made u leave yr lovely, cosy n warm home...
i hate myself, my dear...
i relli wan to do something for u...
at least once, i gt to do something for us..

however, i hold back my words...
cos i noe myself cant b heartless...
i will nv make it...
i will b back to u if u ask mi back...
deep down in my heart i also noe u need mi...
deep down inside i noe i luv u...
i relli do..
so how???
*confusion*
i dunno wat to do...
i wanna ask u wat shld i do...
but nth come out...

i noe, after u read tis,
u will b veli upset...
i relli dunno wat to say...
my heart is already in a terrible shape...
till i dun care abt it...
i letting it b...
i m numb abt heartache...
till sometimes i cant even cry it out...
jus realise is gd to cry...
but now i change le...i cant seem to cry...
no tears dropped, all trapped inside...
haix...

2005-12-15T10:42:00.000+08:00

Haiz...know u r in bad shape..in bad mood...but i was hurt by yr words...really hurt...had accepted yr sorry...but the words doesnt seems to fade away...feelings r bad...heart had broken in millions n millions of pcs wen i heard u say tat....haiz....

*Gary signoff*

2005-12-13T01:18:00.000+08:00

Juz read wat u had blogged...actually i didnt know wat else can i say le...there r so much feelings in mi...been asking myself...can i really bear to leave u all alone here?? can i stop thinking abt u?? r we gg to end everything juz like tat?? till now i cant find the ans...i took up alot of courage to tell u all my plans today...today is the full details of wat i m gg to do....i always tot after telling u all these i will feel beta...but it ended up worse...i felt so lost...so guilty...all the promises tat i had given to u...had to be broken...i cant take care of u le...i cant be there wen u need mi...i cant stay ard u anymore...there r so much so much...all broken promises....haiz....the decisions i had made had a veri great impact on mi....i dun seems to have a choice...

I m so worried abt u...after i left...r u well taken care?? will u be happy like before?? will "he" be giving u all the happiness u want?? i so puzzled...my mind r full of question marks....or maybe after i leave u will feel beta...u dun have to worry abt how i feel anymore...no need to ren my temper...my jealousy...no need to feel bad towards mi...no need to worry tat "he" will find out abt us...no need to scare we might be caught in streets...all tis once n for all...a full stop....

Or maybe after i left...u will feel unhappy...feel sad...i m no longer ard u...u may nt be as happy as before...all yr sleepless nites...yr crying nites...may all juz come back n haunt u....maybe u will feel helpless...living in darkness...i really dun wish to know wat will happen to u after i left...

There r so many times i wanted to ask u to leave "him" but i didnt bring it up...u always been saying u still have feelings towards "him" but i really wan u to ask yrself...deep down in yr heart is the feelings real...or its all juz season love?? "he" cant gt out of all life becoz it feel werid without "him"ard...i know u didnt wan to think abt all tis but i juz wan u to make sure abt yr own feelings...haiz...

Last of all...i juz wan u to know after i left...u still can look for mi..as i m juz a fone call away...my soul n heart is still with u....our love is like wat u had said...it grew veri deep into both of our heart...n thks for all the presents...i really love them to bits...i cant give u anything now...i m sorry...sorry tat u will be suffering with mi throu tis coming one mth plus...i m really veri surprise today...everything is so sudden...n i forgot to wish u a Happy Belated 100th days...

030905 SNG...loving u lots...*Gary signoff*

2005-12-13T00:17:00.000+08:00

it was hard to control my tears jus now...
i admit i act strong jus now...
cos i dun wan u to c mi in tears jus now...
i noe it is gg to b hard on u...
so i m gg to b strong for u...
at least i gg to try...
i will tc of myself lky nv b4...
JUS FOR U!!!

i knew everything u said jus now b4 hand le....
u told mi alot of times u gg away for a long time...
means we r gg to b seperated...
all e time i jus kept quiet...
cos i dun wan to tink abt it...
i dun wan to imagine how it feels lky wifout u...
cos deep down, i noe its gg to b lky hell...
tats y all i can do now is escape!!!

i jus wan to cherish all e time we spent together now...
lky there is no tml...
so i m nt gg to regret wateva happens...
do u understand my dear???
cos i haf learnt my lesson...
nth is foreva...
is onli foreva in yr heart...
u may leave now,
but my luv n mind towards u cannot leave jus lky tat...
is too deep, it will b living inside...

all e sweet memories,
yr actions, tots, luv and words will nv be forgotten...
it will b well kept...
all these gift frm u...
is more than enough...
it is priceless!!!

i will nt ask u to stay my dear...
cos i relli support wat u gg to do...
i hate to c e stage u r now...
seeing u so stress, living so aimlessly and hopeless...
relli hurts mi lky hell...
i will luv to noe u r over at e other side of e world living happily...
at least much beta den wat u haf now...
is more than enough...
i will b happi n smiling for u...

tats is my only gift i can gif u...
e wings tat belong to u...

i will always luv u deep down in my heart...
as there always a place for u...
yr luv already rooted to my heart, my dear...

*WO AI NI*

2005-12-12T10:49:00.000+08:00

^-^ hApPy 100th dAy, my lovely hubby!!!! <33

u are my angel hu knows how to brighten up my day,
pamper me lky a princess,
and take care of me lky a baby...

i luv u for hu u r...
nv gg to change my luv towards u...
there always a place for u in my heart...
cos yr footstep is printed in it le...
it cant be forgotten or erased...
tis is how deep is my luv...

wo zhen heng ai heng ai ni...
*muack* =))

2005-12-08T23:15:00.000+08:00

Baby ling ling...u beta c tis entry with yr eyes open wide k??

I care n concern abt u...i give in to u...i console u...i m always there wen u need mi...i simply juz gave up everything for u becoz....

I LOVE U....

i did all tis juz becoz i wan to let u know i really love u alot...i dun know wat i will be without u...

U R IMPORTANT TO MI...

i m so scare to lose u....i scare all my bad dreams will come true....haiz...

030905 SNG...love u lots...*Gary signoff*

2005-12-08T13:25:00.000+08:00

i m glad everything is alrite now...
i m glad n thankful tat yday u acc mi thru out e day...
wifout u by my side,
i will definitely break down...
yday was relli nt a smooth day for mi...
however, everything was under control...
as i haf u to cool mi down...
to console mi...
yr presence is more than enough...
i dunno how to describe how thanxful n bless i m to haf u...
giving in, caring n concern and giving up everything jus for mi...

wo ai ni...
i miss ya too...
pls tc wor...
u sick sick le...
slp more lahx...
take yr time for e jigsaw and e vcds can???
pls...
when u r sick or upset...
it relli hurts mi double...
i m so worry abt u!!!

2005-12-04T21:27:00.000+08:00

*92 days*
so much happening...
full of ups n downs...
yday was so beautiful...
today is full of dark clouds...
but my sky has poured...
raining heavily wif cats n dogs...

tis mayb my last post...
if u r nt gg to speak to mi again...
i m relli speechless...
cos i dunno wats gg on...
been 3hrs....
no sign of u...
i can only force myself nt to tink so much...
but it is useless...
my tears is so uncontrollable...
wat shld i do???

my heart is stabbed...
deeply...
jus found out...
i didnt manage to convince u to open up to mi...
u guys always luv to keep quiet...
u guys luv to b alone n tink wild...
u say it is to cool down...
is it true???
haix...
i dun tink so...
it jus let u feel worst cos u tinking abt e worst...
e worst thing tat could happen...
y do u tink abt it when u dun wan it to happen???
no idea...

i jus doubt tat ani1 change for mi to e fullest...
there always a time...
they r back to themselves...
i cant do anithing...
but wait in silence...
so wat i make so much noise...
nth help but it get worst...

k... i sure nt disturb...
i dunno wat to say le...
feeling so confuse...
everything sux...
one day every1 is happi...
another some1 is upset...
nv ending...

I Love U..
Enough to wan to protect u, care for u,
guide u, hold u, comfort u, listen to u..

Enough to be completely comfortable with u,
act silly around u, be myself n
never hide things from u..

Enough to share my thoughts,
dreams, goals, fears, hopes, worries
AND my entire life with u..

Enough to wan e best for u, hope 4 ur success,
fulfillement of ur endeavors...

Enough 2 keep all my promises to u,
pledge faithfulness to u..

Enough to cherish ur friendship n love,
adore ur personailty, respect ur values and
see u for who u r..

Enough to miss u when we r apart,
no matter wad length of time n
regardless the distance..

Enough to believe in our relationship,
stand by it through e worst if times,
have faith in our strength as a couple n
never give up..

Enough to spend the rest of
my life with u.. be there for u..
whether u need mi or not..
n i will never ever leave u
or live without u...

I LOVE U TIS MUCH...

2005-12-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

here i m typing tis msg alone...
i feel lonely now...
e most terrible feeling i ever had...
cos i feel so left alone...
hubby is feeling mi nt speaking e truth...
i dunno wats wrong...
or wat happen....

is it bcos i went out???
i did tell u my hubby...
i msg u...
but u didnt reply...
den a few mins ago i received a msg tat i was speechless...
u r disappointed tat i lied to u...
i dunno wat is it...
but if so...
i m sorry...
i m relli sorry for wateva it is...

haix...
i feel lky waiting for e sky to drop now...
e time wifout seem so hard to spend...
i dunno how long i can tolerate tis....
i m crying my heart out...
to release my sadness...
how i wish i can turn back time...
how i wish i stayed at hm...

at least everything will b fine???
at least i can b myself...

sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry sorry
i m sorry my hubby... :((

For i ever once thought love was a trap,
yet now i believe that was plainly crap..
Darkness had became such a relief,
for i could love u with all believes.
Even we might be miles apart,
nothing could have ripped us apart..
For i survive in u, so near,
and when the wind blows,
u would hear my voice that i'm right here..
U, who made my soul full..
Revealing my passion and
even doubts that could ever arise
had disappeared within..
Replacement of u,
a miracle that would never come true,
would i even survive without u..
Such a toture and torment for
the heart would have to be torn apart
and memories stripped away..
Allow this never to happen..
for the grip of u could never loosen..
I've made my choice
not glancing even a peep on the other stars..
The love for u could never deplete,
its your existence that made my story complete..

2005-12-04T11:38:00.000+08:00

Hmm...wen to fetch baby in the afternoon...den head for chinatown...becoz she wanted to go...the bus journey was super long sia...thks for baby's suggestion...haha....both of us was veri hungry...den hurry wen to have lunch...gt baby's fav food but she said so-so only... :( after tat we ard window shopping...next bluff baby to bugis to watch movie...my intention was to gt a new skirt for her...haha...n we gt one...hmm...i like the design veri much...its a new arrival....but abit too longg le...n finally found the choco i saw in the mag....bought 3 boxes of different fav at one go... :) so in love with chocos....next we head for suntec as baby promised mi a romantic dinner but the resturant tat she suggested was fully booked...n she was so disappointed...no choice...wen over to Fish & co....but dinner was ruined by someone...haiz...my mood was veri foul during dinner...baby kept asking mi to cheer up abit....but no mood lei...after dinner wen for movies n headed home...baby was veri tired le...wanted to slp....baby must at least slp for 16 hrs a day den will enough sia...haha :p

Thanks for everything...u made my life so colourful...had a really wonderful time with u...sorry tat dinner was ruined....i have so much to say to u but i dun know how to express it out...i m using action to prove everything...i may had been veri quiet recently but my heart is still with u...my mind is still thinking of u....n i promise i will give u all the love tat u never had before...i wan to be the only one....no one can replace mi...miss u lots....

030905 SNG foreva....love u....*Gary signoff*

2005-12-04T08:23:00.000+08:00

having u by my side is better than having tons of friends, lots of money or any sort of happiness one could get... though at times things may get tough or too tough as a challenge for us, i believe if we hold on together... WE WILL WIN.... I truly love you lots my dear... you always said I lighten up your life and brought u hope, but neither did u realise.... YOU TOO GAVE ME HOPE.... a hope that guarantees me of a happy life I will be leading in years to come... you too gave me true love which i never gotten before... this is the kind of love that one would never forget as long as she live... thanks my hubby for giving mi so much... i will treasure every minute and second I have with u... Our love will last till eternity... as I know we were meant to be... I LOVE U !!!

2005-12-03T01:35:00.000+08:00

Baby lingling...Happy 3rd mth anniversary wor.... :))

Had a great day with u....finally gt u weiwei le...haha...wenwen's didi...a pink n a white piggy...hope they both will accompany u throu the nite wen i m nt ard ba...

Remember wat i told u tis afternoon in MSN ma?? hope u will keep tat promise...its gg to last tis lifetime...n my romantic dinner tat u still owe mi de...hmm...c where u r gg to bring mi to eat tat special dinner...juz bear juz more hrs n i can c u again...so happie...happie happie happie....

030905 Happy 3rd mth wor...SNG foreva...*Gary signoff*

2005-12-02T11:15:00.000+08:00

Hmm...its been quite a long time i didnt blog le...baby ling ar u oso lei...maybe tis few days nt much of happenings ba...i kept having mood swings...dun know wat had gone wrong...haiz...time flies veri fast wor...tml is our 3rd mth anniversary liao...still haven tot of any present for u...gt to walk ard n c liao...hope today n tml will be a great day ba...

Had a veri bad dream last nite...slept ard 2 plus n was waken up at 6 plus...the bad dream made my heart kept beating veri fast...tears flowing too...shall nt say wat i dreamt abt...its scary...really scary...till now the image kept flashing back...i cant stop thinking abt it...its hurts wen it kept flooding my mind...

U have stand a veri important place in my heart...i cant do without u...i need u so much...i cant backout anymore...as i had already fallen veri deeply...i cant even control my feeling towards u anymore...humans always tends to take things for granted...i have to admit tat i m too...at times i will think m i really taking u as granted but after last nite, i know i didnt...its becoz i love u veri much...n always tends to care too much abt u...n i know if i continue to go on like tat i will seems to be controlling u...i dun wan to let tis happen...so trying to control everything...nt to ask too much...the more i ask the worse it become...n i always gt to know things tat i shld have knew...so now trying to relax abit liao...nt so tense up...hope things will turn out to be fine...

U had been quite sick recently...hurry gt well ba...i wan a healthy looking baby ling nt a pale one...i m going to stuff u with all the gd food liao...cant stand the pale u...look so horrible.... :P

030905 SNG foreva...loving u...*Gary signoff*

2005-11-28T23:58:00.000+08:00

Feeling veri emotional tonite...alot of things to type...my recently feelings...veri stress...ppl r giving mi pressure...there r a few times i really wanted to give up...break with u but i cant...i juz dun know why...i dun know how to express myself in front of u le...i m lost at words...

Like i told u...u r veri independent...i love yr independent but at times i hate it...becoz i felt so nelgected...u seems like u dun need mi at all...u can take veri gd care of yrself...sometimes i really wish u can be a little ger in front of mi...whisper sweet things into my ears...be weak in front of mi...i know u too tat u dun express veri well of yrself...i m nt blaming u...but feelings r coping in my heart...i m juz complaining...

Its my job to take care of u...juz let mi do so wen u r weak...i know u dun wan to add more probs for mi but even u dun wan mi to take care of u...i m still worried...n it doesnt make any difference...i need u...i cant afford to lose u again...i m making u to stay by my side no matter wat...so i cant allow anything to happen to u...it juz hurts wen i c u in great pain...i cant stand tat stupid feeling...u r acting like its ok n stuffs...n i ended up cant do anything...i juz can console u...stay wen u r in pain...u r too strong...too independent...at times u r so sweet...but at times u treat mi so coldly...i dun know how to react...

I had changed...i m totally changed...i started to change my expectations in a r/s...i m confuse...tis love doesnt come veri easily...we had a veri hard time even now...but my love towards u never change...its still a everlasting one...my love for u is increasing everyday...i m suffering...i m veri xin ku...but i wont let go...nothing will make mi let go....

030905 SNG foreva...*Gary signoff*

2005-11-24T22:41:00.000+08:00

reach hm for an hr le...
today didnt get to c hubby...
jus now miss hubby's call 3 times...
i m sorrie...
i didnt hear it cos it is in silent mode...
i didnt answer cos i m away...
i feel so bad now when all hubby's hp is off...
i cant get u at all...
i m so worry!!!
i cant stop myself frm it...

we r relli lky ants in a hot pot when we r nt seeing each other...
cant help to worry so much...
when we meet everything will b ok...
and we will be feeling so heavenly lahx...
all e misunderstanding n probs will jus disappear...
is so magical!!!

but e fact is tat we cant b 24/7 together lahx...
haix...
wat to do...
human will nv be sactify wif wat they haf...
and onli noe what to treasure...
and onli noe they are happi...
when everything is gone...

lky wat i heard on e radio...
u will nv noe e pain when u r being surgeon...
when u knew everything, is over...

keke...y i m toking abt tis???
hmm...
aniway...
i m missing u lky hell now...
relli hope everything is fine for u...
pls contact mi asap k???
i luv ya!!!
*muack*

2005-11-23T00:20:00.000+08:00

Something is veri wrong with mi today...i dun know wat's wrong with mi...i m sorry to reply u/talk to u in tat way...i was so worried wen i cant find u...i sent so much msges out...i m angry...worried...sad...lost...all feelings juz came together...sorry for my attitude...sorry for being harsh...i wanted to talk to u nicely wen u called but juz dun know why i cant...wanted to msg u but fingers tell mi nt to....had made u sad n angry at the same time too...haiz...

030905 SNG foreva... *Gary signoff*

2005-11-22T15:39:00.000+08:00

MuaHahA...
so long didnt blog le....
sorrie wor...
been bz wif stuff...
hee...

jus wan i to say no matter wat happens...
i will support yr decisions made...
jus tc of yrself k???
dun wish to c u suffering n sick sick...
heart will pain pain de...
remember to rest more, drink more water n dun tink so much...
there is too much probs in life...
and it is nv ending...
so muz learn to throw them aside at times...
jus dun tink abt them 1st...
relax yrself...
luv yrself k???

i miss hubby so much...
praying everyday u will b fine...
and all e best to u...
jus wan to hold yr hands to walk thru all ups n downs...
hug u when i feel lost n cold...
look at u when i miss u...
having u by side is more than enough...
*muack + huggie*
wo zhen de hao ai ni wor!!!

2005-11-20T06:00:00.000+08:00

Was with baby the whole day...actually wanted to go fishing de but in the end changed plan...wen to have steamboat...den follow by coffee at coffee bean...baby wasnt feeling well...but she kept saying she is ok...after coffee we wen to the riverside to talk...we left ard 3 plus den wen to have prata...mi n edwin was hungry...haha...after awhile baby wanted to leave...she was like in great pain...i wanted to take a cab to send her home de but she wanted to take the nite rider...so we took the nite rider...in bus i can sense tat she is in great pain...i can actually feel the pain...i left so useless...i cant do anything to make her feel beta...we alight at toa payoh lor 8 to let her go toilet...she had gastric after vomitting...n she took a cab home...hope she is beta now...i cant help but to feel veri bad...i can only c her in pain but nth i can do...I M SO USELESS!!!

030905 SNG foreva *Gary signoff*

2005-11-19T09:00:00.000+08:00

I m blogging more than u le..haha...i miss u so much...finally can c u after 3 days...i m so happi...*jumping up n down* its so hard nt to think of u...having little quarrels with u...but ok la...can almost solve everything le...sorry for my unreasonable...i admitted my mistake...

Cant stop looking at u...
U r so attractive...
I can c the gentleness in yr eyes...
It made my heart stop beating...
U took my breathe...my soul...my heart...
I m yrs...
Nt gg to leave...
I love u...

030905 SNG foreva...*Gary signoff*

2005-11-18T10:36:00.000+08:00

Was listening to Westlife's old songs n came across tis one...hope u like it wor...

Westlife-Moment

If i die tonight,
I'd go with no regrets,
If it's in your arms,
I know that i was blessed,
And if your eyes,
are the last thing that i see,
Then i know the beauty heaven holds for me,
But if i make it through,
If i live to see the day,
If i'm with you,
I'll know just what to say,
the truth be told,
Girl, you take my breath away,
every minute, every hour, every day,
Cause every moment,
we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,
A moment in time,
is all that's given you and me,
A moment in time,
and it's something you should seize,
So i won't make,(i won't make)
the mistake of letting go,
Everyday you're here,
i'm gonna let you know,
That every moment,
we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,
Each morning that i get up, (each morning i'll wait),
I love you more than ever,(i love you more)
So girl i'll never,
go away, never stray,
So every moment,
we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,
Every moment, we share together,
is even better,
than the moment before,
If every day was,
as good as today was,
then i can't wait until tomorrow comes,
I love, love, love the moments, (oh yeah)
Moments we share together,
I love, love, love the moments,(oh yeah)
I pray they'd last forever,
I love, love, love the moments, (oh yeah)
Moments we share together,
I love, love, love the moments, (oh yeah)
I pray they'd last forever now..........

2005-11-18T03:28:00.000+08:00

Stop blaming yrself la...its nt yr fault anyway...i m juz being stupid lor...didnt tell u in the first place n juz wen to wait...was kinda of worried abt u...i didnt slp the whole nite...so suddenly tot of giving u a surprise n juz wen to wait for u...saw yr msg said tat u r slping so dun wan to disturb u n wen back home...didnt c u for days le...miss u alot...there is feeling in mi...i dun know how to express...all i know is tat i r in my mind...didnt stop thinking of u....

I chose ang mo kio's k-box is becoz i wanted to ask u along...but dun know why i didnt say out...was quite busy too...so today juz label it as "No Fate" day ba...

030905 Gary hubby N Baby Ling Ling *Gary signoff*

2005-11-17T11:37:00.000+08:00

i feel lky an idiot today...
for being lazy to go to sch...
if onli i get myself ready for sch,
everything will nt b e same...
i will b able to c hubby today...
wat m i doing???
i dunno...
i no longer using my brain...
feel so toopid...
for waking up for sch le
den go back to bed cos is raining...
haix...
all i noe is to say sorrie now...
i m so sorrie k???
wat else can i do???
my hubby is so gd to mi...
but i always waste his effort...
wth!!!

conclusion...
both of us r so silly lahx...
for once we spoilt each other surprise...
y God cant jus help us...
gif us a beta road to walk???
y is He so hard on both of us...
mayb is gd,
mayb is nt...
i dunno...
i jus noe i luv hubby lots...
missing hubby lky crazy e moment i wake up...
jus wan to kiss n hug hubby...

2005-11-16T23:35:00.000+08:00

Tonite ling is having bad mood...haiz...i used all means to hoax her but still cant get her into gd mood...n i myself ended up in a bad mood...i m always so lost wen ling in tis kind of mood...i really dun know wat to do...felt so useless...in the end juz asked her to hang the fone up n slp early...dun dare to disturb her...hope she will be alrite tml ba...

Found tat wen i m facing ling i dun know wat to do...wanted her to vent on mi but she didnt wan to...at least wen she vent on mi...she will feel more beta n i wont feel so lost...heart hurts wen i c her like tat...all i can do is to keep quiet...nth else...sorry...

Ling hope to c u smile again...i m always there for u...

030905 Gary hubby love Ling.... *Gary signoff*

A lovely story of a boy n a gal...

2005-11-16T00:55:00.000+08:00

A lovely story of a boy n a gal....

On 30th Aug, a boy told a gal tat he likes her...wanted to woo her...but she was not ready...so kinda of rejected the boy...but the boy didnt get dishearted...he continued to woo her...the next day 31st Aug, the boy bought a box of chocos for the gal as he remember tat the gal told him she likes choco alot...n oso a stalk of flower tat represent happy for her...but the gal didnt say anything juz a thank u n she left le...they continued chatting on fone n exchanges sms...till on the 2nd of Sept the boy asked the gal out...the boy was trying all means to let the gal feel how much he likes her...he holded her hands n hugged her...n wen they r in train the boy hugged the gal real tight to him n the gal suddenly cried...the boy was veri lost...he didnt know wat had happened...he tot he had done something wrong...but actually the boy had touched the gal's heart...so on the 3rd of Sept, the boy wen to fetch the gal n they wen back to the boy's place...n tat was the time the boy holded the gal's hands, kissed her n asked her to be his gal...the gal juz nodded her head n the boy smiled le...(tis was by gary)

There is still a short ending for tis story...n here it goes...

From tat day onwards the gal never stop loving hubby...As each day passes by, she fall deeper into the love sea...never been a sec she stop misses n care abt him too...cos hubby is too dearly to her...(tis ending is by my ling de)

030905 Siling n Gary...SNG Foreva...

2005-11-15T13:24:00.000+08:00

so sweet of hubby wor...
e whole day sent mi sweet sweet n touching sms...
everytime i received them,
they jus make mi smile frm my heart...
i look crazy to smile to myself...
but couldnt control lehx...

keke...
yday met hubby frm morning till nite time...
in between gt seperated lahx...
cos gt to go sch mahx...
poor hubby,
travelling here n there e whole day...
frm waking up at 6am in e morning...
till 11pm den reach hm...
2 of us were so tire till we almost slpt in e train...
lol...

*PIGGY COUPLE*

lastly jus wan to say...
hubby i m missing u lots...
luving u so much...
wanna to c u every sec...
*muack*

2005-11-14T02:02:00.000+08:00

So much of suffering for tis few days...ARGH!!! can go crazy ar....juz read baby's entry...so sad tat baby actually didnt wan to accept mi de...but in the end cant stand n so we gt back together...tis few days really sucks...nth seems to be rite...in a world of colourless...i m forcing myself to do something tat i dun wish to do...angel n devil...which shld i listen to?? had been crying non stop...i so scare to lose u....i tot i can do without u...but actually i cant...i still have to tear down the mask n face u...i wen back to u...

I m gg to admit tat i m in my own world...a world tat belongs to only u n mi...but who cares? i dun wan to face the reality anymore becoz i m juz happy to be with u...no matter wat happen in the future...at least i wont regret...i had already face the reality alone...it juz sucks...i juz wish to go back to our foreva world...to continue to be with u n dream....Reality!! Juz back off!!!

Happy...u r back to mi again...hope tat after all these...we will become closer ba...i will give back all the secure feelings to u...i promise...everything back as normal....

030905 Gary hubby miss u miss u miss u........ *Gary signoff*

2005-11-13T20:19:00.000+08:00

tis weekend is relli tough on us...
i noe, we r struggling to progress...
trying to move forward or backwards...
cos we r tire of our current situation...
i respected u...
yr decision of leaving...
tats y i turned cold frm fri onwards...
trying to b independent...
but in my mind is full of u...
worrying abt u...
however i cant call n msg u too often...
cos it will b a torture to u...
for u, trying to leave but mi keep pestering u...
so i chose to stay quiet...
let u decide....

cos i relli dunno wat to do...
my mind is full of qns marks...
i wanna to b heartless too...
to end tis suffering for u...
mayb we jus b frenz tat share problems n joy can le...
so we will nt b so pressurise...
we will nt expect anithing frm each other...
and mayb u can find some1 soon...
i believe u can...
some1 hu belongs to u...
u can hav yr happiness....

as for mi...
i will be relli glad if u can do so...
mayb i will b hurt...
but it doesnt matter...
cos when u r happi, i shld b too...
at least soon, i can b smiling when i c u wif yr her on e street....

haix...
but hu noes, u cant take it....
u cant leave...
u come back find mi...
guess is too hard for u le...
tell u e truth,
actually i dun wan accept it...
cos i rather we go hell now...
once for all...
no more suffering after we climb up frm here...

in e end, i cant do tat too...
haha...
i m nt so wei da...
i m so weak, wicked n greedy too...
relli cant bear to let u suffer...
c u alone crying yr heart out...
c u so hopeless...
is more painful than crying alone...
my heart jus breaks n bleed lky hell...
i cant stand it too...
so today i decide to go back to normal...
e pain mayb repeating...
but i willing to suffer wif u...
at least i haf u...
tats enough...

cos i luv u...
zhen de hao ai ni...
cant bear to c u cry again...
i miss u lky crazy too...
conclusion...
wo men zhen ai feng le...

2005-11-12T21:22:00.000+08:00

Today feelings r totally different...we r like strangers...even chat oso feel like 2 normal frens...heart is aching like hell...i simply cant do anything...i finally realise without u by my side is damn xin ku...why must i always have tat hard feelings in mi? was listening to jay n lara's Shan Hu Hai...i dun know its the lyrics or the kind of music...my heart juz break into millions...tears juz flow...deep down in my heart...i know i cant leave u at all...but why m i forcing myself to do so? u dun come veri easily...i have to go throu so much to have u by my side...n why i m nt cherishing u? tis 2 mths...problems juz kept coming...i always try my best to solve everything...both of us suffer so much...there r so much time wen both of us wanted to give up but in the end didnt...its juz becoz of one reason....the both of us r in love with each other...no one wan to leave...no one bear to give up...

No one knows wat will happen in future...shall we juz treasure now?? or do we have to really give up?? all i wan to do is to hug u tight in my arms...never never to let go....can i??

030905 Gary hubby is missing Baby Ling Ling so much *Gary signoff*

2005-11-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

It all started wen i said i like u...i shldnt had said everything out....i shldnt had woo u...i shld juz keep everything n move on...i msged u to ask u to use tis few days to think abt us...i m really veri useless...i cant let go...i wan u to be mine...but i cant force u to leave him...i really wish tat u can juz leave him n come to mi...but i m juz dreaming...u gave back wat i shld have...do u think its fair?? even u gave everything back its still the same...i dun need them at all...becoz its u tat i needed...dun always say i m giving u everything n u r nt...or u cant...its my part...u r my gf...my partner...my best fren...my listening ear....u r all roles in a person...i m real veri happy tp have u by my side...but i juz hate the feelings tat i have to hide here n there...n always have to tot of the other "person"...he is juz like a wall to mi...stopping all the things i can do with u....i m damn sick of tis feelings...

The moment wen i m alone...i will start to think...m i making u suffering?? r u in a diffcult position? r u suffering alone? how i wish i can stay by yr side everyday...juz to make u smile...alot of ppl always says...if u really love tat person u shld let her go...but do u think its true?? no...i dun think so...wat if both of them r in love?? but they have a veri big problem tat they cant solve...den they shld hold more firm to tis r/s n gt over everything togther...like i always say...so wat if fate really plays a veri big part in a r/s?? if there is no hardwork n effort its still equals to zero....we got to try our best to do everything...only give up at the last min...even u know there is no help le...juz continue...u wont know wat will happen...

As for now i hate myself for being so useless....i simply cant do a thing for u....how i wish i can slp throu my whole life n never wake up again....

030905 U will always be the one...promised...*Gary signoff*

2005-11-11T01:30:00.000+08:00

Both of us r quite sick tis few days...so pls tc wor...today didnt really talk much to u...was veri busy n i dun wish to disturb u from resting too...so i believe u can take care of yrself de...n as for mi...i m ok wor...u enjoy yrself at the chalet n relax abit ba....lately too stress for u le....hope to c u real soon...

030905 Gary hubby miss Baby Ling Ling *Gary signoff*

2005-11-10T11:36:00.000+08:00

i miss my hubby so so so much...
haix...
both of us are so sick...
muz tc wor...
orelse no energy to go out le...
hee
*muack* =))

Baddy day...

2005-11-08T23:45:00.000+08:00

Ytd was the worse day we had together...it all started with mi...if i had pick up baby's call...we wont have tis misunderstanding le...i think i wasnt in a veri gd mood ytd...was all alone at work n there is tons of things to do...feeling veri moody...afternoon actually scolded baby for nt planning her day properly...i juz wan her to gt more rest n nt rush everything in one day...was quite harsh...tat wasnt mi....until in the nite...ard 8 plus...customer came in for collection...one after another was veri busy...baby called...as my hp's LCD screen is spoilt...i have to actually flip up the hp to c who had called...n i saw its baby...i cant listen anyway so juz flip back...she called quite alot of times...n she oso msged mi...asking if i was busy...i didnt have time to reply lor...n her second msg really hurts mi...say sorry to disturb mi n stuffs...haiz....i cant even reply lor...i tot wat had happened to her...after finishing with the customers i called her immediately...n explained to her wat happened...n she said she had wanted to find mi de...but too bad i didnt pick up her call n she is on her way back home...my tears juz flowed down...it hurts...n i dun know why...heart is in pain...veri pain...all i said is asked her to take care...n be careful on the way back...

After putting down the fone...she msged mi...said she cant stand le...asked mi to wait for her...she come n look for mi...so i waited for her...she bought Mac for mi to eat...n i pei her home...wen we r on bus...we chatted over wat had happened...n i had a shocked wen she told mi actually her had bought my fav food n drink....but she cant find mi...she juz gt off the bus n threw everything away...2nd heart break...i almost burst out in tears...all i can do is to hug her real tight...n said sorry....i so sorry abt ytd baby....

030905 Gary Hubby love Baby Ling Ling lots n lots...*Gary signoff*

2005-11-08T23:34:00.000+08:00

gt to say a BIG BIG AND HUGE HUGE sorrie to hubby...
relli make a fool of myself for days...
yday was e worst...
haix...
i m so sorrie!!!
didnt mean it...
jus gone crazy abt u le...
hope everything is fine for u le...
hope tis misunderstanding is relli over...
i dun wan to tink or say or ever bring out all e problems...
wish it to be burried and gone foreva...

hee...
i m so glad i m able to c u after my tiring day of sch...
i feel so great jus to c u in front of mi...
i miss u lky hell...
feel so jumpy cos i piercied my ear le!!!
yippie***
lol!!!

hubby muz rest more wor...
u r looking sick le wor...
muz muz muz tc...
stay healthy n cheerful wor...
luv u deep deep...
*muack + huggie*
c ya tml!!! =))
wo hui xiang ni de wor!!!

2005-11-07T01:38:00.000+08:00

The entry tat i m gg to type is wat i had written down in a piece of paper in the afternoon...had been feeling terrible since tis morning...haiz...here is wat i had written...

There r so much of mixture feelings in mi now. my mind is out of control. cant think. cant calm myself down. i had tried to ask myself nt to think but i cant. the moment i heard abt the things between u n him, it jus make my blood boils. he simply jus took up all the time between us. he took away yr heart from mi. n the love tat shld be mine. i had been telling myself nt to fall any deeper but i cant help it. i tried all kinds of ways but it didnt help at all...avoid u, in the end made mi miss u even more. push u away, jus made my heart breaks. to bear with every single thing, it makes mi so xin ku. till i cant breathe. watever way, it jus turn out tat we cant be seprated.

i didnt wan to be too pushy towards u. i dun wish to force with to break up with him. i m jus waiting for u, to settle everything. its been 2 mths le...even thou its nt really tat long but the bond between us had been so close tat its so hard to break the both of us up. the love between us had grew stronger n stronger. there r so much downs for the past 2 mths but we have lots of happy moments too. actually i had been thinking of breaking up with u n juz live with all those sweet memories tat u had given to mi. juz wanted to bury all my love n memories in my heart n leave without a word. but i juz cant do it. there r so much things in u tat i cant seems to let go. yr smile. yr voice. yr smell.yr kiss. yr hugs. yr gentleness. juz yr everything. all these r enough to let mi stay on. i cant imagine how much i had loved u.

I'm starting to get selfish. i cant always be the generous one. its jus hurts. n its to the core. every nite been crying to slp. or jus stare at the walls ard mi. everyday juz ask myself...how long can i bear? how long must i carry on like tat? n i always left with one ans....I DUN KNOW....

tis is the end of the letter i had written...haiz...
I'm sorry to give u troubles again...i m feeling veri bad at tat time so juz wrote down how i felt...i know how u will feel after reading tis...it took mi quite awhile before making the decision to type it out here...all i can say is a big sorry to u...hope tis entry wont spoil yr mood ba...

030905 Gary hubby will always love only Baby Ling Ling...*Gary signoff*

2005-11-06T20:36:00.000+08:00

62 days since we together...
nt veli long time...
but nt a short period...
luv cant b measured or compare...

jus 1 day...
didnt meet up wif hubby...
i missing u lky hell...
calling u e whole day...
i cant control...
wo zhen de hao xiang ni...
yr smile, yr hugs n kisses, e way yr eyes tok to mi....

jus edit our blog again...
finally e entries are nt repeated...
n post a pic...
sorrie my art work sux...
hope hubby lky it bahx...
k lahx...
no mood to blog le...
cos e more i blog, e more i miss u...
AArrGg!!!

2005-11-06T14:14:00.000+08:00

hubby...
suddenly i feel veli, terribly bad...
haix...
everything seems so unfair to u...
i dunno wat to do...
i hate to c u suffering everyday...
and i m one of e reasons...

i dunno how to lessen yr pain...
mayb is nt i dunno...
is i cant do ani of them...
i m useless in tat sense...
haix...
u r tire, stress n having heartache everyday...
tire cos nt enough rest...
stress abt work n family...
heartache cos mi, worry abt mi...
wan mi but u cant...
wan to accept others but cant...
cos of mi...
everything is cos of mi...
i feel so wicked towards u...
i dunno y m i doing tis...
i m so greedy n evil towards u...

at times, by looking at u...
u such an angel but y are u treated so badly...
my tears may jus fall...
but i hold it back...
cos i dun wan to c u upset cos of my tears...
WAT SHOULD I DO???
sometimes i relli wan to noe...
wat u wan mi to do...
jus to let u feel beta...
i dun bother abt myself animore...

COS I REALLY LUV U...
I REALLY MISS U LKY NUTS...
BUT I WAN E BEST FOR U...
COS U REALLY DESERVED THEM...

yday i feel so blessed...
jus to haf u around...
to go buy ingredients frm supermarket wif u...
to c u b4 gg for tuition...
is enough... my heart jus smile at e precious moment...
to haf u cook for mi...
is more than enough...
to haf u in my arms...
is more than a blessing...
is more than enough...
to haf u by my side...
e whole nite...
is heavenly...
sometimes i wonder do i deserve u...
everything to b wif u...
is more than enough...

wo zhen ai ni...
ai si ni...
till at times, i m so lost in yr love...
i dunno m i wrong or rite to luv u...
but i dun care...
cos i relli luv u...
i do believe n trust u my hubby...
jus hope n pray everything will b fine for u...
things will nt b hard on u...
*muack*

2005-11-04T19:17:00.000+08:00

hihi~!!!
i m back in action...
hee...
sorrie yday didnt blog...

yday had an outdoor celebration...
our plan also change le...
frm long john silver breakfast to go eat diam sum...
den go east cost park, cycle...
hubby exercise e most sia...
i enjoy e wind blowing on my face...
den we rest at e jetty...
wow!!!
so windy there...
so relaxing...
after tat we cycle n sit at e beach...
e weather so hot...
cannot tahan so go eat ice cream...
yummy!!!
=))

after tat we go marina eat steamboat...
keke....
change of plan again...
hubby suppose to cook for mi de!!!
where is it???
ok lahx...
at least bb peel prawns for mi...
we eat 2 mountain of prawns...
=Pp

after tat we go bowling!!!
yesh!!!
so long didnt bowl le...
n my skills down lky wat...
keke...
but manage to win hubby at e 1st round...
after tat hand ache le...
cannot play well liaox...
so hubby win mi le...
duh duh duh!!!
nt fair de... lol...

after hm sweet hm le...
hubby so tire...
we 2 zombies go to 7 eleven...
get our fav drink...
keke...
cos hubby insist on buying...

so 1 day gone liaox...
wow seh...
veli fast n tire sia...
end of our outdoor celebration...
is so enjoyment lahx...
tink e whole day, i m e 1 hu enjoy e most...
lol...
e piggy mi mahx...
lky wen wen liaox...

sorry hubby...
today make u worry worry liaox...
i m relli ok liaox...
all sickness cure le...
jus now gt enough rest le...
super sweet slp...
keke...

u muz muz muz tc of yrself wor!!!
miss u miss u miss u miss u miss u!!!
muack...
thanx for everything...

2nd mth anniversary...

2005-11-03T02:00:00.000+08:00

Today is our 2nd mth anniversary wor...Baby ling ling...happy 2nd mth anniversary!!! i love u lots...juz reach home nt long ago...had supper with my ling...haha..i getting fatter liao...almost everynite oso having supper...

Tis 2 days is quite bad for the both of us...i m throwing my temper ard...showing attitude n stuffs...pushing ling away...didnt wan to meet her...maybe juz scare will ended up quarrelling ba...but ling msg mi n said she miss mi badly...n wan to meet up...but i totally have no mood...n ling is nt feeling gd...wen she is being push away...so ended up meeting lor...was quite alrite de whole day...ling was veri quiet...i tot she was angry or having bad mood but at the end of the day den she told mi she having headaches...haiz...really silly ger lor....i m always so speechless towards her...she is so understanding....i dun wan to make her unhappy le...i dun wan to let her suffer le...hope sunshine will come after the rain ba...everything will be fine...i promise...

Hope tml will turn out fine...i wan our 2nd mth anniversary to be a happy one...will try all my best to make u smile the whole day...

030905 Gary hubby love Baby Ling Ling...*Gary singoff*

2005-11-02T09:26:00.000+08:00

morning morning hubby!!!
keke...
yday mi power sia...
slp e whole nite...
frm 8 to 9.30pm
den 11++ to 9am...
now energetic as ever le...
wen wen also kana influerence by mi le...
cos yday 8pm i hug her to slp le...
tis morning i wake up...
she was jumping around le...
die le lahx...
today muz pei her play till siao siao le..
lol!!!!

hubby...
dun say sorry to mi lahx...
cos if lky tat i also muz say sorry...
cos is my fault too...
i make u worry n down...
dunno wat to say...
jus wanna to say...
wateva happens, to mi is ok...
as long as i haf u by my side...
i luv u for hu u r...
miss u lky nuts even it jus a day we didnt meet...
it seem so uncomfortable n terrible...
but i will bear wif it...
ying wei wo ai ni!!!
muack + huggie...

Bad day...

2005-11-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Baby ling ling...i m sorry for wat happen today...i m in a really bad mood...the rest i shall nt say le...as u know everything liao....we gt to hold firm...believe we can go thru all those downs de...

030905 Gary hubby love Baby Ling Ling like crazy...*Gary signoff*

Bad shape...

2005-11-01T11:50:00.000+08:00

Baby ling gt scolded tis morning...den tat "he" oso fan her....made her quite bad mood...actually i was quite ok de...but gt pissed off later by something...everything seems nt rite...i m trying to cool myself down but still veri pissed off....so decided nt to msg ling or call her first...i scare might ended up quarrelling...juz let her do her own stuffs first...den she is ready den msg mi...i dun understand why i get so pissed off after wat i heard...damn angry now...dun feel like saying a single thing...

Abt last nite....i think can read some from ling's entry ba...nt gg into details le...juz met up den wen for movie...den supper...n i walked her home...while walking ling home she knocked into a stone chair...den gt blue black...n skin peeled off...was veri worried sia...looked veri pain lor...haiz...ling is always so blur de...played till too crazy liao...haiz...

gg off for work le...shall end here...gt to hurry cool myself down first...

030905 Gary hubby miss Baby Ling Ling lots... *Gary signoff*

2005-11-01T10:07:00.000+08:00

I've been thinkin' 'bout us(and the things we've been through)
It's time we get serious(you know I would like to)
But we need to work out these issues
Before they get out of hand(oh Yeah)
Oh yeah
I know we've been fussing and arguing
But the fact is unity is a good thing
It took a while for me but now I see
Though some will love you, that same will hate you
Sometimes I'll scream and curse you out
Just try to chill and ride it out
But it's official when I'm against you
Whether it's wrong or it's right
I would rather be by your side (x4)
I've been lookin' at our history
Things ain't changin' but they need to be
Where do we startSeems like it's gone too far
Can't we just try to work it out(oh yeah)
Oh yeah
I know we've been fussing and arguing
But the truth is unity is a good thing
It took some time for me but now I see
Though some will love you, that same will hate you
Sometimes I'll scream and curse you out
So try to chill and ride it out
But it's official when I'm against you
Whether it's wrong or it's right I would rather be by your side (x4)
I'm so sorry I treated you so bad (so bad)
But I did realize what a friend I had (oh no)
I regret the things I did and you can't believe that
I apologize Wish I could take it back
Though some will love you (kiley:sometimes I loved you),
that same will hate you
Sometimes I'll scream and curse you out
So try to chill and ride it out
But it's official when I'm against you (oh)
Whether it's wrong or it's right
I would rather be by your side
I would rather be by your side (by your side, yeah)
I would rather be by your side (by your side)
I would rather be by your side (side)
I would rather be by your side (oh)
I would rather be by your side (oooh)
I would rather be by your side
I would rather be by your side

[___+ a song found somewhere... veli meaningful sia... cos in a r/s is always up n down... but wateva happens.... jus having each other by their side.... is more than enough... e wound heals by itself n e r/s grow even stronger... yeah... hubby.... tis song is for u too..... enjoy.... ^-^ +______]

2005-11-01T09:31:00.000+08:00

jus woke up at 9am...
cant slp le...
gt scolded again...
keke...
but nvm lahx... used to it le...
so came online, tot hubby will be here...
but didnt c u...
tink u getting some rest bahx...
so dun wan call u...
some more yday nite, i 5am den slp...
u sure later den mi de...

sorrie ahx...
reply u half way fall aslp le...
hee...
cannot tahan e temptation of slping when on my bed wif wen wen...

wow!!!
yday early 2nd month celebration was so surprising lohx...
didnt expect it...
i love everything of yday...
in fact everyday...
i luv e necklace...
e design so cool lahx...
i will wear it every sec n mins...
nt gg to take it down lky e bracelet...
i luv e dinner...
it was so nice n full filling lahx...
mmmm!!!
i luv the movie...
every movie watch wif hubby is enjoyable...
cos wif e person u luv sitting beside u...
every sec is so great!!!
*is the person u watch wif matters*
i luv e supper wif hubby...
cos i saw how cute is hubby...
keke...
e look on her face when she drink sour drinks...
kawaii neh!!!
=Pp
i luv e walk after supper every nite...
it seems lky we r living alone in tis world...
when e streets quieten for us...
everyone disappear jus for us...
when we can chat wateva we wan...
enjoy e peace of having each other...
mmm... i'm luvin it!!!
all these moments r so sweet, lovely n precious...

nv gg to forget every sec n moment wif hubby...
i miss u so much tat i cant slp le...
wo ai ni...
babylingling zhen de hao ai Gary hubby...
wif no doubts... <33

2005-10-31T09:23:00.000+08:00

Baby i miss u so much...can die from missing u lor...heart pain pain ar...cant imagine if one day i have to live without u...without u i dun exist at all...will love u till my last breathe....

030905 Gary hubby missing Baby Ling Ling lots n lots....*Gary signoff*

2005-10-30T23:58:00.000+08:00

Hmm...baby ling ling had blogged more than mi le wor...i gt to work hard abit liao...gt to blog more than her...today actually didnt meet my ling de but cant stand le...so find a excuse to meet up with my ling...so said wan to take my work stuffs...haha...wen to bought something for my ling...a piggy soft toy...ling named it wen wen...cute rite? juz wan to get something for ling to hug wen she miss mi...hmm...my ling had gone to orh orh le...she seems to tired recently...haiz...abit worry abt her liao...gt to get some tonic for her sia... :P

Ling sorry abt juz now...throw abit of my temper...love u lots wor...i m gg to orh orh too le...so can meet u in our dreamland....

030905 Gary hubby hug hug Baby Ling Ling....*Gary signoff*

2005-10-30T20:06:00.000+08:00

hmm...
finally i m sitting in front of lappy le...
can relax abit...
jus now kana scolding again...
hee...
but quite alrite bahx...
cos used to it le...

HUBBY I MISS YA SO MUCH!!!
even thru it jus hrs ago we met...
or we meet everyday for a week le...
nth seem enough...
hee...
we r so greedy...
wanting more n more...
nv satisfied...

but now i understand y i relli muz treasure my lao gong zai...
after catching so many movies wif hubby lately...
i realise e pain n e feeling of death...
when yr luv one jus gone in a sec...
is a torture....
u cant do anithing to turn back e time....
or do wateva for them animore...
all u can do is regret...
n accept e fact...
yuck!!!

howeva, wateva it is...
i m nt afraid...
as long as hubby is around wif mi...
treasure wateva we have now bahx...
enjoy wheneva we can...
i promise to b wif u as long as i can...
cos i luv so...
muack....

tc lao gong zai!!!
pls b healthy n happi for mi...
=))

2005-10-29T11:00:00.000+08:00

morning morning!!!!
wOw...
yday u stayed up till so late huh...
notti... didnt slp immed...
tis morning still so early wake up...
later muz go take a nap k???
keke...kk...
stop my nagging...

yday was great...
it was lovely...
having hubby come fetch mi wif choco...
den go to cck for movie...
e movie is so touching lahx...
always make ppl cry at e end of e show...
how can???
muz place it in e middle of e show mahx...
orelse ppl so embarrassed when e light is on again...
e face all wet sia...
lol!!!

after movie go ktv...
keke...
suddenly 2 of us cant sing well sia...
i cant read e chi lyrics out of e sudden...
hubby no voice...
keke... so we 2 jus anihow thru...
after tat had supper n hubby walk mi hm again...
so sweet!!!
i luv it...
hehe...

but i cant laugh...
haix...
my gums or wateva veli pain sia...
cannot open my mouth...
damn pain...
now mayb ok le...
cos i havent even tok to a person...
lol...

hubby...
muz tc of yrself wor...
slp more k???
u r human so gt to eat, slp n relax...
luv yrself k???
muack!!!!

i luv ya <3
miss u too... =))

Happy to have u ard...

2005-10-29T04:34:00.000+08:00

Its 0422am in the morning...baby ling ling must have slept le....thanks for everything,,,i had great fun today...afternoon wen to fetch ling ling from sch...was kinda of bad mood becoz weather damn hot...but after awhile was ok le...becoz saw my ling liao...haha...so mushy rite?bought chocolates for my ling...took bus to ang mo kio den change train to yishun...we wen there juz to eat long john...haha...after tat we down to choa chu kang to look for vee....vee was quite busy so mi n ling wen to catch a movie first...we watched my idol's show...All About Love...by Andy Lau...veri nice wor...ending was nt gd...in the end i cried...became quite emotional...n tell ling nt to leave mi...i really need u...i wont bear to let u leave....n i left only u...u r the only one tat is the closes to mi le....after movie met up with vee n wen to Kbox...shuwei was there too...haiz dun really know wat happen...the both of them quarrelled...den left the place...in the end only mi n ling singing...was quite tired le...so left Kbox ard 2 plus...n head for ang mo kio for supper...was veri hungry...after supper...mi n ling walked back to her blk...so romantic lor...talk while we walk back...how i wish i can kidnap u home...n be with mi forever....

Baby ling ling...i love u...u r so great...take gd gd care wor...i miss u wor...

030905 Gary hubby only love Baby ling ling....*Gary signoff*

2005-10-28T14:58:00.000+08:00

i m so excited lahx!!!
sch gg to end in 10mins...
and i m gg to c hubby in few mins too...
yeah yeah!!!
so looking forward to c hubby today...
* smile *

hubby jus wan to thanx u for everything...
i feel so blessed to c u everyday...
even for jus a few mins yday...
is more than enough...
* muack *
jus miss u so much e sec i didnt c u...
jus luving u deeper for each sec past...
cannot be describe lahx...
cos i jus luv u so much!!!

wo zhen de zhen de heng ai heng ai ni!!!
wo zhen de zhen de ye hao xiang ni wor!!!

Miss u...

2005-10-28T08:32:00.000+08:00

Its 0823am in the morning...miss my baby ling so much....cant stop missing u for a sec lor...juz hang up the fone with u nt long ago...miss yr voice...yr hugs n kisses...cant wait till later...have the urge to c u now...sorry abt wat had ytd...was kinda of bad mood...but was ok later le...last nite i wasnt trying to be sweet or stuffs...juz purely veri worried abt u...was raining so heavily...n there's thunder n lighting sia...scare u will get wet or stuffs...so decided to fetch u...=)) its my part to do all these for u....trying all my best to do all i can...

Miss u...love u...r u too missing mi as i did?? n r u loving mi as much as i do?? =))

030905 Gary hubby thinking of Baby ling ling.... *Gary signoff*

2005-10-27T10:50:00.000+08:00

sorrie...
so sorrie hubby...
sadden u yday...
tink today yr mood is still down bahx...
haix...
i dunno wat to say sia...
cos he is e past already...
jus tat he lky to disturb mi on n off in my life...
so i dun relli care abt him...
so wat if he is young, handsome, cute and gt alot of gals go after him
but he onli wan mi....
he jus sux to mi as he always lie n ps mi...
even missing in action all e time...
i can nv trust n believe him...
i tell u all htese cos i dun wan keep anithing frm u...
i will nv go back to him too...
it didnt happen n nv gg to happen...
cos i gt no feeling for tat idiot animore...

hope u understand n get over it soon...
remember tat day i say,
i dun wan to move on or back le ma???
i jus wan to stand at e current ground...
to adapt and be happi...
to be wif u is enough..
i dun mind i need to go thru wateva shit...
wif u around, things r different...
they will become nth to mi...
cos wateva it is, i haf u...
e one hu luv, care n understand mi...
my lovely hubby!!!!
i luv u...
muack!!!

[__+ When I Look Into Your Eyes +__]
I see forever when I look in your eyes
You're all I ever wanted,
I always want you to be mine
Let's make a promise 'till the end of time
We'll always be together, and our love will never die
So here we are face to face and heart to heart
I want you to know we will never be apart
Now I believe that wishes can come true
'Cause I see my whole world I see only you
When I look into you eyes
I can see how much
I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
I've looked for you all of my life
Now that I've found you,
we will never say goodbye

I can't stop this feeling and there's nothing
I can do 'Cause I see everything,
when I look at you
When I look into your eyes
I can see how much I love you
And it makes me realize
When I look into your eyes
We will always be together,
and our love will never die
When I look into your eyes
I see all my dreams come true
When I look into your eyes
When I look into your eyes

Bad feelings...

2005-10-26T23:15:00.000+08:00

Baby ling ling gave mi a surprise today...didnt expect tat u will come down n find mi de...was so shocked...n at the meantime happy....even the time to meet up is short i m already veri happy to have u by my side...

I m sorry...having bad mood...didnt know why i felt so pissed off after wat u told mi juz now...its tat nt i m nt trusting u or stuffs...its like a threaten to mi...i m scare...veri scare...i m juz scare to lose u...i had already settle down le...i dun wish to start everything all over again...having mixed feelings...scare till wan to cry out le...i dun wish anything to happen anymore...its so diffcult for us to get togther...i dun wan anyone to bother us anymore....juz wan the time to stop now...my heart is aching...n its veri pain...i cant take it... =((

030905 Gary hubby miss Baby ling ling.... *Gary signoff*

2005-10-26T12:00:00.000+08:00

in class now...
so sainz...
(z(oo)z)
keke... hubby i m missing u!!!
muz tc of yrself wor...
today i mayb gg down to find u wor...
yeah yeah!!!
c yA soon...

wo ai ni!!!
huggie!!!
muack muack!!!
wo hao xiang ni wor.... =))

< < - Till The End - > >
All these precious moments
With you by my sides
Must be a gift from heaven
That's holding me all day
I don't know how i found you
I'm thankful that i have
Now that i have a love so true
To hold.. to keep..to share..

Chorus
In my heart
I can no longer hold inside
All of the love i used to hide
I'll always be
With you until the very end
In this world
There is no place i'll probably
You are my life..my soul.. my boy..
You threw it all

I know you've come to see
That you're the one
Till the end
All my friends surround me
Say you'll be gone too soon
Baby i'm gonna make them see
We've found our way back home

Chorus
In my heart
I can no longer hold inside
All of the love i used to hide
I'll always be
With you until the very end
In this world
There is no place i'll probably
You are my life.. my soul.. my boy..

]You threw it all
I know you've come to see
That you're the one
Till the end
We'll always be
Till the end..

Days of meeting up...

2005-10-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Wah tis few days veri zai lor...baby ling ling had been meeting mi up...so sorry made u suffer le...gt to go all the way down to my workplace to meet up with mi...xin ku le...but feelings r really great wor...everyday can gt to c u...hug u...kiss u...hmm...i think i cant live without all these...anyway here to say thanks for everything baby...i love u...u r the greatest...always there for mi wen i needed help...finding myself abit useless sia...cant do anything for u...haiz...

Baby ling ling...juz wan to let u know...i missing u every min n sec...cant gt u out of my mind...tml cant meet u...its going to be 2 days...wed n thurs...haiz...its ok ba...u enjoy yrself u them...

030905 Gary hubby love Baby ling ling.... *Gary singoff*

2005-10-25T23:35:00.000+08:00

wOw...
been meeting hubby for almost everyday le...
hee...
*thumb up*
jus feel so great to c u everyday...
as i relli miss u...
all the saddness of e day will jus vanish,
frm e moment i c u...
everything seem to b so small to even tink abt it...
u r too special to mi...
i luv u!!!

hope yr days are much beta...
everything r much beta le...
muz jia u wor!!!
i always support u...
muz muz muz tc of yrself too...
worry abt u frm e moment we seperated de wor...
cos u always hack care abt yrself...

muz treasure yr life n body k???
they r impt..
wifout ani of them, u will suffer de...
in return, i will effected too...
cos is a pain to c u suffering...
muack!!!
i go do journal le...
miss yA!!!!

2005-10-25T12:08:00.000+08:00

I could stay awake just to hear you breathing,
watch you smile while you are sleeping,
while your far away and dreaming,
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender,
I could stay lost in this moment forever,
every moment spent with you is a moment i treasure,

(chorus)
I don't want to close my eyes,
I don't want to fall asleep cause
I miss you baby and
I don't want to miss a thing,
cause even when I dream of you,
the sweetest dream would never do,
I still miss you baby and
I don't want to miss a thing.
lying close to you feeling your heart beating,
and i'm wondering what your dreaming,
wondering if it's me your seeing,
and then I kiss your eyes and
thank god we're together,
I just wanna stay with you
in this moment forever and forever and ever,

(chorus)
I don't want to miss one smile,
I don't want to miss one kiss,
I just want to be with you right here with you,
just like this,
I just want to hold you close ,
and feel your heart so close to mine,
and just stay here in this moment,
for all of the rest of time....

hubby, tis song is jus frm mi to u...
dunno how to express my feelings towards u to e fullest...
but i relli miss u a lot...
frm e 1st second we r apart....
i dunno how to survive frm now to e second i will c u again...
but for u... i will try my best to live to e fullest...
it is u... i live for... cos it is u tat i luv...
dunno wat u r doing rite now in tis sec or
how u feeling when u r apart frm mi....
but tis missing n qns shall stay wif mi....
i m willing to go thru tis for our luv will grow strong...
i believe n trust u tat u will luv mi as i will...

2005-10-24T23:45:00.000+08:00

now i shall blog again...
hmmm...
even thru morning saw hubby...
and jus now went to c u...
but lky is nv gonna be enough for mi...
aAaRrr!!!
relli wish is 24/7 together...
keke...
dreaming...

btw, sorrie hubby...
my answer for yr qns is nt wat is nice...
sorrie tat i still cant move on...
neither do i wanna to plan for e future...
as i m afraid of failing...
as disappointment is always in my world of life...
i m tire, hearbroken n afraid of planning for e future...
cos even i dun wan to change...
e environment n ppl do change...
i cant control anithing...

but there is one thing...
my luv towards u will nv change...
if change, onli change for e deeper luv...
tats all i can confirm wif u...
i truely luv u...
muack...

`__++ MisSiNg My HubBy ++((^^,)((o'_'o)(,^^))++__

030905...a date to remember..

2005-10-24T13:26:00.000+08:00

030905....hmm...a date for both of us to remember...i had already fallen veri deeply...we had gone through so much ups n downs...no one can break us up le....happy to have a blog of our own...as i finally can type out abt my feelings towards u le...no need to hide in my blog....veri happy to c u tis morning...although its like only an hour plus...its already quite enough ba...how i wish i can c u everyday...wake up in the morning...the first person to c is u...having breakfast with u...sending u off to sch...reach home have dinner with u...spending all the time with only u...n before bed u will be the last one in my mind...hugging u to slp...it will be so xin fu... =)

Never regret to be with u...even in tis kind of situation....but i really hope wat i had wish for will come true soon...loving u...gtg...late for work le...shld blog more later in the nite...

030905 siling n gary....*Gary signoff*

` <3 Liing's 1sT eNtRy !!. (("v") ::.

2005-10-24T13:22:00.000+08:00

yeah yeah!!!...
our ling n ting one and only blog is out!!!..
keke...
hope hubby luv it too...
cos is both of us put in effort to do tis de...
* smile *

jus wan to say::::
" hUbby, i m missing u now...
xiexie for fetching mi to sch tis morning wor...
so sweet of u... muack!!.
i luv u... nv gg to regret...
no matter wat happens...
i always will care for u wif my hands,
tink of u in my mind,
luv u in my heart...
as there always has a place for u in heart "
noe u veli tire le, tonight muz slp early wor...
pls pls take care of yrself...
muack + huggie

`__++ Luving u for now & foreva ++((^^,)((o'_'o)(,^^))++__